Have You Ever?

Hello my lovely readers...
ok so yes...i blogged twice in a week =o! yes im starting to blog more =D so yey but i got no time for vlogs cos my windows movie maker is being rlly slow and wont let me edit =/ but anyhu...no this blog isnt about the game "have u ever..." its actaully a response to amy's blog "A Ramble...?"
basically ive been reflecting alot on d things i wanna change and i was reading amy's blog and some of the qs rlly struck me...

1. ever felt that you wanted to be normal? and not reach some high standards that everyone expects you to?
   
2. ever wanted to be just you, no questions asked?
3. ever felt that time was flying by too fast...that days were going by without you knowing what was said?

ok so basically ive been rlly thinking bout these things how like time is rlly passing quickly! how like i cant even remember the Y4J live-in and it was only 2mnths ago and it rlly seems far away but wen i look at it in school time it feels like nothing...i mean i still feel like i just started school and that we r stil in d beginning chapters of the sylabii but in actual fact the 1st term is almost over and christmas is literally round the corner!!! i think i need to take things slower ppl...cos im being too fast..i need to calm down and reflect on my days rather then counting down the end of term...hu agrees :P XD?
ok also...qs 1 rllllly struck me cos like i realised that some ppl expect us to be like these rlly holy ppl and if not all holy atleast like hv these rlly high standards and stuff..and ok its d right thing to do...im gonna start confusing u here...but tbh i dont think we can just be wat ppl want us to be...it has to come from us....let me give an example...
peppina is a christian with a drinking problem...u cant just tell peppina stop drinking cos thats not wat jesus thought us..ok u can tell her but i doubt shell listen...u hv to help her cut down and to do it in prayer and if peppina's prayer life isnt rlly grand its gonna be harder for her to stop cos she's not rlly relying on God is she?
whilst giving another example....
if roberto prays constantly and is at a constant with God than its less likely for him to end up with a drinking problem like peppina did
speaking for myself...i believe my standards reflect my relationship with God...i tend not to show my standards but yet conscience that im keeping them...so dont judge me...im a person u cant judge by cover xP
so yes i believe...that wat we do is all a reflection of our prayer life...now i might sound like hypocrite but yes i no i am...we all are....no1 keeps to everything they say...u r a hypocrite as much as i am(i might be more of one thou) xD im sry..if u dont like it-dont read anymore :P
so going on to amy's 2nd qs...i believe that u should always be yourself...and dont be wat others try tell u is right...be urself and if you dont like that...then start listening to wat ppl say is right...and pray...prayer=relationship with God=defines your christian character =)
Thats me for the day!

Signing out with everlasting cuddles and blessings! xxx

Extreme Make Over 2

Ello loved ones!
ok so lets get down to it shall we =P till now d decision is that im most probably not going abroad this summer cos d prices of d dance trip went up so ive decided that God just rlly doesnt want me to do it this yr for sure...so ye that scrapped...so im buying a gud fon ^^ which makes me a happy panda and ill be actually getting christmas prezzies this yr and not jsut money to save up..cos like for d last yr ive saved everything to go up to ss or outreach..etc..so like this yr im taking a yr off and jsut staying in sunny malta and saving up some money but livign life with d rest and not jsut saving everythin..decided i need a break =)
Other news...ive decided this is new yr is gonna be a yr of change..halli my changes started yset but still....2009 is gonna be my random yr were if i wanna do something im jsut gonna up and do it...being a silly teen ftw ^^ dw..im meanign gud thigns...like crazy hairstyles and piercings and like things God asks me to do lfet right n centre...this yr kai is gonna be a fool..any1 wants to join :P?
this leads ur to our lovely topic...my hair...i changed my hair yest...ill put a pic up at the end..tis very sexy and grand =D it was kinda random...ive wanted to do it for a long time but never got down to do it and one day i jsut sed "wat d hay..im single...i dont care about my appearance atm..lets go for it" and wat do u no? it turned out quite gorgeous ^^ so yey =D
also...i went bk to st.mikes...was rlly fun and hilarious..i had a marriage concelling session with karl and ms.C...and wat struck me is my teachers told me ive become quiet =S it seems ive become more concervative and im not sure i liked wat i haerd =/ so ye im debating and wracking my brain on that statement a bit now =)
other than that i think things r fine...all my other appliances are working...my healthy-ish xD and my grades r fine...execpt pure maths..but thats cos my teacher is a joke and im soon starting pl so ill be fine =) but i think thats it!

yes that is blue ur seeing in my hair :P

Signing off with blue cuddles and blessings! xxx

Falling on dark times...

Ello loved ones...
well its me again..not so famous today tbh...yest was a gr8 day but turned out to be utterly horrible
Thing is (ok im gonna just vent out and put myself out there) i hv work right? its from 6-10 on fridays to sundays...and i dont mind it like..but d problem is after that i wanna go out..u no a whole week of work and no fun isnt gud for u so i wanna just relax a bit...so i end up out at 10.30/11 and i hv tp be home by 12 which is kinda stressful cos it means i just get an hr...and my mum gets all pissy cos she has to come for me late and shit so that doesnt help...but of course d tip of d ice burg yest. was that my buttons on my fon broke...and as some of u no...im saving up..i need 1000euros by d time july comes along cos i wanna go to a dance school abroad for a bit and im already tight in getting d money as it is...so like having to buy a new mobile is gonna make it worse..but atleast...tnx to paula..she is letting me borrow her old one till christmas so atleast ill get a mobile for christmas...but its still pissing off u no wat i mean?
also some other things happened but i dont wanna rlly talk bout that...and im also missing d fact that im not at d live-in of d youths this weekend =/...i missing u guys alot ok? dont forget bout me!!! i still love u all very much and ur still family to me...its jsut like i went abroad now or something
anyhu...welll i think thats my blabbing done...hope u ppl r all ok!!

Signing out with loving but emo blessings and cuddles xxx

10 Things I Hate About You

Ello ello ello
welll nothing going on rlly in my life atm....lots of time to think though. Loving JC its like im on a learning holiday xD d only think i hate r d stairs cos i hv to stay going from d basement to d 4th floor and by d second floor i get tired xD my fav. classes are language of philosophy simply cos he lets me take my coffee during d lesson <3 color="#ff0000">logic of philosophy cos its so much fun to work d stuff out xD but anyhu...d purpose of d blog today is cos ive been reflecting on little things ive found out bout myself over d yrs...i came up with 40 constant things that are part of me and how i react to things or wat i like or dont...bla bla bla but im only gonna write 10 cos it reminded me of d film "10 thing i hate bout u" which ive loved since it came out (in 1999) and it was my first to many heath ledger films that i grew to love xD but anyhu...some might no all these points and to others it might be new...so lets get to no kai XD and if u like them i might add some more later xD... *drum role*

1. I love dancing ---if u dont no that boy u rlly dont no me xD
2. I constantly change my mind
3. I trust a lot of ppl with small secrets yet only 1 or 2 with big secrets (if 1 or 2)
4. I dislike show offs and ppl hu over exacerate/ dramatise things
5. When I write I always try to put a bit of truth from my life into the story
6. I'm scared of the dark, bees & cats, yet i love kitten but i wont bring any of them close to my face
7. I don't really wear make-up, its more like if i feel like ill wear
8. I hate it when ppl mess up my hair when its up...when its down i dont mind but if its pulled back it honestly frustrates me
9. I'm alergic to tuna and skimmed milk xD
10. I constantly look at them time --cant stay without knowing d time

So there u hv it 10 random things bout me xD hate them or love them-there is more were that came from, but anyhu i leave u now with my motto ;

"never regret anything cos everything happens for a reason =)"

Signing out with 10 cuddles and 10 blessings xxx

A Fresh Term

Hello children! as Dez would put it =P hehe *shout out to Dez all d way in spain* hehe

ok so....i hv a reason for not writing in my blog and d reason is i dont like my blog its being mean to me =( some how my settings changed and i cant fix it!...all my link are at d bottom and d only thing that shows ontop r my vlogs and my posts...i just want my side links bk on my side but my blog wont let me :'( help me fix it!!! PLS!

tears aside....I PASSED MALTESE! im very happy bout that and because i passed maltese im off to JC hands-down no-qs-asked xD i dunno if id say im rlly excited bout it cos i dont rlly think i am =/ i hv a phobia of new ppl XD unless ive heard all bout a new person im most likely to be extremely quite around them and i dont like being quiet especially at school..im d type of student in ur class hu asks all d stupid qs and makes every1 go "oh come on!" XD yes thats me *glee* anyhu...im also not excited cos i hv to start busing it to school =( which is not fun at all....especially since d bus schedule sucks....to be on time for a lecture at 9 i hv to catch d bus at 8 =/ d times are ridiculous so yes...any offers :P XD?!!? i no most my blog viewers hv cars now so ha! *guilt trip flying ur way* =p especially u UNI ppl :P XD another reason i dont wanna start school is d obvious..i dont wanna work or study bla bla bla but to be totally honest im just a tad--ok maybe a bit more than a tad- bit scared of d lifestyle at JC..its not gonna be easy and its gonna kinda suck but hopefully ill get stronger through it =D (with d aid of my friends prayers for me o=)) teehee

anyhu...ive also decided that i MUST do a yr studying abroad...prefarably anywere on d british isle xD so if any1 has heard of anything pls tell me =D

on to sicker news....im sick yet again...horrible cold =(...and its pissing me off cos im never fully not sick and its bloody annoying! this summer has been hilarious concerning my health...in d matter of 3 mnths my health insurance has bounced and they refuse to pay anything that concerns my sicknesses xD cos im always sick and making them lose lots of moneys xD which i find hilarious but insomma...other than sicknesses i must say this happened to be an awesome summer...last summer rocked too and i havent decided which one is better tbh cos i had an o-level summer last yr too (well u can put it that way) cos i spent from june-august always hanging out with d ppl hu had finished their o's so like i got a taste of their full time summer and it was awesome =D but anyhu..i keep rambling...i shouldnt xD

so..ill be off now =)..im gonna put in some fotos of dr.john's bday...OH! btw i started writing a song..and for d first time EVER im making my own tune to it-not getting some instrument-playing person to make d tune..infact im making d tune off of my bass =D im actually getting a bit better at bass which is gud =) considering im teaching myself xD but anyway..im off!

signing out with end of summer cuddles and blessings! xxx