tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63734204385856683182024-03-13T00:18:13.278+01:00Simple BubblesThis is me - love me, love me not.Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.comBlogger92125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-63634190693797617792011-06-26T12:15:00.002+02:002011-06-26T12:20:37.938+02:00For Whoever Might still be reading...So its been a while since I've blogged, this year has been honestly crazy! <br />I thought I'd have time to get back into it after my 1st semester exams but once those were over it seemed like 2nd semester exams were already there!! I've been getting loads of comments during the months I haven't been blogging and I've decided it's time to start blogging regularly again...I'm not sure HOW regularly but I think I'm gonna try post my thoughts on this blog. <br />I learnt so much this year that I feel its the right thing to do =) <br />Share the answers that I've discovered about my doubts!<br />Theology is really having an effect on me and well for whoever is still reading...I think I'm really going to start getting back into this so stayed tuned (:Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-43923225172677077602010-11-29T22:43:00.003+01:002010-11-29T22:49:12.456+01:00BulletsSo lately I've been learning a lot of small things that i don't want to forget or things I'd like to adapt to my life and I don't want to forget them so i've decided to jot the down here seeing as I doubt anyone reads blogs anymore I think its the best place to write them were they can remain rather personal and at the same time might touch someone (:<br /><br />so today's lesson:<br /><br />I became accustomed to looking at the big picture and looking at what God wanted for my future and just seeking out the goal and just preparing for that and I never realized that I need to work for the now not the future so I've decided to take God on a day by day basis by praying for people on the spot, instead of forgetting to do it later and reading the bible because I feel like instead of waiting till I have time to have a whole quiet time session.<br />Yes, I'm gonna try work on the now. Do everything there and then and stop delaying things.<br /><br />Wish me luck!Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-91435630275305076972010-08-11T19:52:00.008+02:002010-08-18T22:09:33.952+02:00New ThingsI'm trying out new things with this blog. Ive been a bit created, ive tried the updating on my life, ive tried the random things that happen to me that can only happen to me. Now I trying something else...<br />this morning a bunch of my friends went up to soul survivor and for the first time in 3 years i didnt join them, and as weird as it feels to be in malta in what i had completely forgotten is the busiest week of the year, yes i am actually ok with this.<br />Im hanging out with people i dont often spend time with and im doing things i dont normally do. Ive decided that every new and awesome thing i do i shall write. So yes, ill be updating this post regularly (:<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Day 1:</span><br />Playstation 3 at Petes :D<br />watched 21 XD<br />Selling energy saving lights at a camera shop xD<br />Actually walking it home :o<br />spring cleaning! XD<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Day 2:</span><br />i touched over 70 cameras and honestly learnt too much if its possible xD<br />Shopping and hafna bonding with vanessa ^^<br />i bought jeggings. 'nough said XD<br />oh and awesome shoes :D<br />got some really pretty visions at community ^^<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Day3:</span><br />sold 10 cameras this week ^^<br />i changed my first diaper! XD <br />got to star gaze in the middle of the sea ^^<br />got to sing-a-long with christian music coming from the boat next to us who just happened to have a boat full of australian christians xD<br />played with kiddies all day :D<br />took some awesome pics (:<br />slept on the boat<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Day 4</span><br />first dive of the year!! :D so grand ^^<br />saw 5 star fish<br />caught my first octopus ever xD<br />collected shells ^^<br />almost caught a fish XD<br />saw flying fish :D<br />changed more diapers xD<br />sailed home (:<br />watched ss on God tv XD<br />slept at val :D<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Day 5</span><br />woke up and made friends with Val's mum xD<br />made pear bread which came amazing (Y)<br />finally watched repo men<br />had a mini ss ministry session in my living room :D<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Day 6</span><br />xeba cameras yet again! XD<br />went up to bugibba and studied with van all day ^^<br />bbq at becky's! :D <br /><br />so yes...a nice random week full of activities and i enjoyed every second of it ^^ <3<br /><br />signing out.Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-83146154292355032702010-07-24T15:49:00.002+02:002010-07-24T16:15:39.986+02:00"This is the first day of the rest of my life"This is the first day of the rest of my life. As I walk through those doors I know there is no turning back. I've left everything behind. I have no regrets. Moving to New York was the best decision I have ever made. My opportunity has finally come and I'm not wasting one minute of it on doubt.<br />I burst through the doors and stand with my head held high and a smirk on my face. The spotlight reaches me and I wait as I see all the heads turn to face me. They've found me. Thousands of people sitting with their heads turned, looking at me. Waiting. Expecting.<br />I open my mouth and the lyrics jump out onto the floor and rush to the stage. They fill the room with an excitement and joy that lifts everyones spirit. I start walking down the aisle, looking at the faces of those watching me. Some look confused, probably wondering why I've started from the back entrance instead of on stage. But what is a show without spontaneity ?<br />I'm reaching the climax of my song. I've reached the stage. I start walking up the stairs. My eyes haven't left the audience. I walk towards centre-stage. My song is finishing. I must woe them again. They will remember my name after this show! I will not be forgotten. I look down. I've reached centre-stage. I slowly look back up at the audience and sing the highest and loudest note I have ever sung in my whole life. I stop. I smile. I try to catch my breathe and wait. A few moments of silence.<br />A sea of people rise and applaud me. I am taken aback by the volume of screams and claps coming from the audience. I've never sung in front of thousands of people before. The lights go off and the curtains close in front of me. I take a minute to absorb everything that has just went on. I heard the hustle and bustle of people grabbing their coats and slowly making their way to the nearest exits.<br />I take my last deep breath and begin to walk towards the backstage. I am greeted and congratulated by millions of pearly white teeth on all those smiling faces. I've done well. I know.<br />After a good amount of time thanking people, I finally make my way up to my dressing room. I sit at my make-up desk and stare at the girl who was once too scared to even sing in front of her own mother. She's still hidden behind all that foundation and those false eyelashes, but she's finally almost gone. I've come a long way since then and with this major opportunity, many more will come. So I say ,"Hello!" to fame and "Goodbye." to fear and the life I used to lead.Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-33442021924396837922010-07-21T22:44:00.002+02:002010-07-21T22:58:43.408+02:00Patience?Willkommen!<br />Well, as some of you might know, 2 weeks after my dear Ellie was brought to me she was taken away and was re-given to me 2 weeks later after being analyzed and fixed by a technician! so yes...even thought i've had my beautiful laptop for a month, she's only actually been at me for 2 weeks now. I am just full of luck aren't I?<br />Also, for those of you who have not heard yet, I passed all my A-levels! yes yes awesome I know BUT [ yes there is ALWAYS a but with me] I didn't get into uni because I am 2 points under...yes funny isn't it? It has to be me right? There is always a catch when it comes to my life isn't there xD<br />Want to know what tops it all off? Today was the only day i got off work in the whole summer [excluding weekends] so I could go to the student advisor to see if there is anything I could do about my "narrow fail" so I got all excited about spending a few minutes talking to the advisor and off to the beach to enjoy my day off but ALAS! Little did I realise that half of Malta decided that they want to know what they're going to do in life today [and I thought I was the only person who didn't know that yet, silly me]. So yes, I picked a number (166) and sat my ass down and opened up my book and began reading when i heard the number 23 being called out and I thought oh dear I'm going to be here for an hour or two but I said it's ok I'm a patient person and I've got my book - I'm settled. Little did I know that my 2 hours turned into 7 and a half most wasteful hours of my life ><<br />To top that, my mum came in the last half hour and was moaning for she had to wait half an hour for what ending up being a 5 minute conversation with an advisor who had a cold and sneezed in my face >< \Mother felt bad for me afterwards so she took me to the point for a bit of retail therapy but of course there is another BUT! 5 minutes after I got into the point I start seeing people rush out...why you ask? a fire drill! And they were closing early 'cos of it.<br />Laugh, honestly, it's freaking hilarious at how much bordering bad luck I've had this last week ><<br />So I say to myself, how far can my patience take me? How much longer is God going to test my patience?<br /><br /><br />Any bets?Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-88473147053880866172010-06-27T23:45:00.003+02:002010-06-27T23:57:42.081+02:00Ellie<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjZhrYy4TTkYukkkkyL9LFhiYeRSsPoIAttZZQ8wi64Bq-iocr3tS1wwEmhyphenhyphenMZEDazqVzZBQ7dmy7o4WXlowv-Klu0PFyPeaJTH11x6Sx8EfPXvCe_-3XpNQigGsYrLdCampJFpKgxdW-b/s1600/UP_ELLIE.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 219px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjZhrYy4TTkYukkkkyL9LFhiYeRSsPoIAttZZQ8wi64Bq-iocr3tS1wwEmhyphenhyphenMZEDazqVzZBQ7dmy7o4WXlowv-Klu0PFyPeaJTH11x6Sx8EfPXvCe_-3XpNQigGsYrLdCampJFpKgxdW-b/s320/UP_ELLIE.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5487575827843716274" /></a><br />YEY my laptop finally arrived and she is an utter beaut ^^ <div>This is just a little intro about her...</div><div>I've been waiting for almost a year to finally get a laptop and infact I've been waiting for her for so long that I feel like I've had her for years when infact we've only been together for 3 days now <div><div>I've decided to name her Ellie because my computer broke down around the time the film UP! came out and I fell in love with the character "Ellie" and decided what better way to make a tribute to her than by naming my laptop after her ^^</div><div>so yes...say hello to Ellie!! </div><div>she'll hopefully be bringing you more blog posts and much more of my thoughts out in the open...don't hate her for it ok?!?</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC33CC;">Signing off with pro blessings and cuddles xxx</span></div></div></div>Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-32459061173119557182010-06-08T21:24:00.002+02:002010-06-08T21:26:24.706+02:00Minute BlogsJust informing anyone who reads that I will not be blogging until I have a new computer due to the fact that this computer is crashing and blogs pain it for some reason..my poor Sasha is taking her last breaths it seems :(<div>Yes I know I said I'll try harder to blog more often but I can't do much about this sorry =/</div>Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-77133775878570020922010-06-02T20:37:00.004+02:002010-06-02T23:24:45.400+02:00Birthday beginningsWith <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">192</span> facebook birthday wishes,<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">15</span> birthday messages, </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">14</span> birthday cards, </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">5</span> birthday calls, </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">3</span> birthday visits, </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">2</span> birthday cakes and </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">1</span> awesome birthday outing and birthday shopping spree, my <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">18th</span> is finally over (:<div>I wanted my <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">18th</span> to be the launch of my blog- <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">renewed</span>.</div><div>Compared to last year my birthday week has been<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;"> great</span>! I just want to make a shout out to all of you who made my birthday so <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">special</span> ^^ every single text/wall post/visit/call/outing/present made me feel so loved. A week ago I was sad because I honestly thought that my birthday would just be another day to me and I would have wasted my <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">18th</span> but seriously...i feel so cared about and thought of ^^ so yey!</div><div>My birthday celebrations started off on <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Sunday morning</span> with a family bbq for lunch. I was honestly so touched when my aunt told me that my <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">4 year old cousin</span> woke up and told her that that day was my special day and that they had to do everything to make me feel special on that day. And boy did she make me feel <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">special </span>^^</div><div>By the end of the evening I was up in <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Bidnija</span> having an awesome all girls sleepover ^^ which was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">awesome</span> but was kinda interrupted by the guys...I'll write a story about that in my next blog.</div><div>Anyway, coming morning/afternoon I found myself back home catching up on sleep with an evening spent bonding with my new friend <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Vass</span> XD till I got a surprise visit from the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Xmun</span>.</div><div>My actual birthday was spent almost always out. My morning was spent in <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Valletta</span> with the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">mother</span> on a s<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">hopping spree</span> ^^ while after recuperating, my early afternoon was spending <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">driving</span> :D followed by a visit from <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Zoe</span> and a visit to the<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;"> Z.E'</span>s house. My evening began with a walk on the front with <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Zoe</span>, a photo shoot at the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">LOVE</span> sign and a joining of the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Zinga</span> (:</div><div>My night ended with photo shoots all over the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">Bay street</span> area and a chat with several girlies on the bay street roof. I kinda felt like i was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">13</span> again xD</div><div>So that's it for today. Hopefully I'll be coming here more often, especially once I get a new <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">laptop</span> ^^ and with this I leave you! *<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#993399;">sorry</span>*</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;"><b>Signing off with 18 cuddles and blessings</b></span></div><div><br /></div></div>Kaihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13560902965900617553noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-74691509426693097072009-12-29T13:58:00.002+01:002009-12-29T14:10:38.193+01:00The Good TimesA few months ago I caroled my way though the horrid things that happened just in summer. Some things actually got worse and the summer literally dragged on till the last week of December. BUT! I promised myself that in order to keep my positive side alive I would write 10 good things that happened to me through out the whole year. This was so unbelievably hard I was shocked...but I managed =) so here it goes..<div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">1.) I made some really great friends & got closer to some older ones.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">2.) I got so much closer to God.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">3.) I gave a talk [something I've wanted to do for a really long time]</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">4.) My baby cousin was born - Bettina <3</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">5.) I had a great time at Soul Survivor.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">6.) Zoe came back to Malta (:</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">7.) My true friends were really there for me when I needed them.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">8.) I had 3 amazing live-ins [G.G, Approaching The Throne, I <3></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">9.) God used me in ways I never thought could be done.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">10.) I finally made friends with my father.</span></div><div><br /></div><div>So yes these are my 10..not in any particular order but looking at them makes me think that the disaster of the year I had was not that bad just because I gained those 10 things. So I thank you all for being my friends and being there for me.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;">I promise I try hard to truly and really love you all =)</span></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">Signing out with 10 positive cuddles and blessings xxx</span></b></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-84125423574780717642009-12-26T12:57:00.003+01:002009-12-26T13:18:24.798+01:00What I did this Christmas...Wow this feels weird..haven't blogged here in a while. To be fair my computer has been living on it's last string for a long time and I'm literally waiting for it to implode now.<div>So yesterday was Christmas...so....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF9900;">MELLY CLISTMAS!</span> =D ^^ For those of you that have been around me during this festive season should have heard me singing my Christmas anthem of this year - if you haven't, it means you haven't paid attention to me so <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FF33;">SHAME ON YOU!</span> - and the song is..</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">"Last Christmas I gave you my heart</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;"> and the very next day you gave it away.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">This year, to save me from tears</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">I gave it to someone specialer!" ^^</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Let me explain to you why this was this years anthem.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">Well for the last few years I haven't exactly been single for Christmas and even if I was, the mentality of my mind was to find a guy a.s.a.p and I thank God so much that this year is different. If you know me well, you'd know I've really been trying to break out of my mentality that I need a guy in my life to be happy and I'm trying to focus on just being single and just enjoying leaning on God because after all, He is the only guy who won't break my heart. Which is the point of the song. Last year I willingly gave my heart to a boy and this year I gave my heart to God. Every year that I've been a christian I've always tried to give my heart to God but there was always the chaos of Christmas and stuff but this year was totally different. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">This Christmas eve I went home after mass and I was there from 11pm-1am just me alone in my house and I finally managed to really and truly offer my heart up to Go</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">d</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;"> [and tell Him happy birthday in peace and quiet :P]</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#333333;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">It felt really weird because I felt that my heart was so broken so dirty so not pure that God really deserved such a more epic present, but guys, that's all He wants</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#333333;">. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;">Our heart is who we are. It's what motivates us, it's what makes our purest decisions. Without it we are not ourselves.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">So yes...the point of this is to encourage you to do the same. Christmas is over now but the new year is still to come.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I've shared my experience.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFFFF;">I hope you can have a similar one =)</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#333333;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:large;">Signing out with heartful cuddles and blessings xxx</span></b></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-35844519319679616952009-10-08T21:36:00.003+02:002009-10-08T21:56:58.707+02:00Did we really have summer?ok so school's back in and its really weird cos I honestly feel like I never left. Kinda like summer just never happened ><>ok so let me explain...i just wanted u all to know how weird i found out my body is...so basically after lots of tests and stuff my doctors finally figured out that most of my illnesses/allergies/random weird reactions come from stress >< <div>So apparently since I'm such a relaxed person on the outside my stress and emotions don't really come out and I don't really have a stress reliever so my body reacts to stress by mentally and physically killing me. So yes, my body's logic is to cause me pain to get rid of stress which evidentally causes more stress...my brain sucks ><<div>Recently I've been figuring out that because my summer was so horrible and because I haven't really expressed how I truly felt about everything that's happened, my body is hiding my memories of this summer....it's really scary...like anything that I try remember that would hurt me to remember this summer is not coming up! It's taking me forever to remember anything about this summer! </div><div>And also, another thing I figured out my body is doing is, that it's controlling my character like I'm naturally clinging onto random people so that I won't have to think about anything and just be happy because I feel safe with them...or I'm automatically turning my head and ignoring people out of pure fear that they might remind me of summer and it's scary because my mind will literally NOT let me talk to them(but in cases were I've had to its just been horribly awkward and frightening)...or...and this is the scariest one...if my mind isn't sure if the person is good or bad for me...it just immediately goes blank for those 5 looong seconds and then I either jump on the person or look away- just till my mind decides - and i rlly think im scaring ppl...and I promise I don't mean to...but it's how my body is reacting till everything cools down..so this blog is a pure apology to anyone I'm ignoring or annoying or clinging to at the moment =)</div><div><br /></div><div>P.S: I have a CT scan and a signed certificate from a Neurologist stating that I'm not clinically insane by saying all that I've said in this blog xD good night...</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">Signing out with jumping cuddles and blessings xxx</span></b></span></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-70478279574161802552009-09-16T21:52:00.002+02:002009-09-16T21:59:51.243+02:0012 Days of SummerTaken from the famous "The 12 Days Of Christmas" I have summed up my summer...<br /><br />1 Funeral<br />2 Break-ups<br />3 Nights in a hospital bed<br />4 Hospital visits<br />5 Mourning people in my house<br />6 Sunny days spent at the beach out of all summer<br />7 Working days at Hilton<br />8 Day vacation - cancelled<br />9 Weeks of recovery from an operation<br />10 Approximate full days that I've seen my brother all summer<br />11 Weeks of studying for a resit<br />12 Sick visits from the doctor<br /><br /><br />I write this list out of psycotic humour...go with it<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;">Signing off with 12 cuddles and blessings xxx</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-44463823918837707402009-09-03T13:26:00.002+02:002009-09-03T13:38:33.036+02:00The Listok so today i was looking at my list of things to do in '09, and realised that a lot of things change. Basically in January I write a list of things that i want to do throughout the year, I do this because otherwise I'll do nothing xD Insomma, today I was looking at it and after ticking off a lot of things I realised that a lot of things I actually don't want to do anymore or found out I can't do this year anyway. Through all this I realised how easily things change and how you just have to seize the moment 'cos so much changes so fast its incredible!So yes, I'm determined on finishing my list as soon as possible and keep my septemebr extremely full xD Oh and I'm employed xD with <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">yellow pages</span> <3><div>so...to end this blog i just want to ask...</div><div>Anyone want to go canoe-ing with me o=)?</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;">Signing off with lists full of cuddles and blessings!</span></span></b></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-75494583621116014722009-08-21T23:24:00.002+02:002009-08-21T23:37:44.827+02:00Books that are of real.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.artsjournal.com/bookdaddy/Home_Photo_books.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 311px; height: 362px;" src="http://www.artsjournal.com/bookdaddy/Home_Photo_books.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />So, after some time of messing up and just rummaging through old scripts, by the grace of God I've started a new one.<div>I'm only in the first chapter here but to be honest till now it looks quite nice (: </div><div>Very curious to just skip to the end and see what happens but hey thats just in my nature.</div><div>All I know is that I've put the romance novels away for a while and this seems to be quite the adventure story.</div><div>Who knows? Maybe they'll be a little bit of romance at the end.</div><div>But to be honest, I'm happy, I couldn't care less about that stuff at the moment, living everyday as it comes in the freedom of Christ.</div><div>I've handed over the pen to a new author.</div><div>He's name is Jesus.</div><div>I hope you like He's writing, 'cause I know I'm sure as hell enjoying it (:</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCFF;">Signing out with cheering cuddles and blessings xxx</span></b></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-68756188746722336882009-07-28T23:08:00.003+02:002009-07-28T23:34:04.367+02:00Bitter Batter Better<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">Good, Better, Best. May you never rest, till you're Good gets Better and your Better gets Best (:</span><div><br /></div><div>I dunno about you guys but at St.Michael's we used to sing that a lot in Jr.5 and I remembered it today ^^</div><div>Ok so, I've decided to be that little more <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">positive</span> in my life and try do a random act of <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">kindness</span> everyday. Not just hekk but like to <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">better</span> myself and to be <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">nicer</span> to people in general 'cause I noticed I'm tending to the more agressive angry side of life atm.</div><div>Also, I've created a book where, each night before I go to bed, I am going to write 3 <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">positive</span> things that happened to me during that day. I have to come up with 3, even on a really horrible day I am not going to let myself skip a day! BUT! I can only write 3 to keep myself <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">humble</span> and to balance things out. Whoever wants to take my idea is more than <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">welcome</span> and that is, after all, why I am blogging about it!</div><div><br /></div><div>Also, I'd really <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">appreciate</span> it if u visit <a href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/Help-Vlada-Campaign/106777078179?ref=ts">this site.</a> The girl has been a <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">friend</span> of mine for 6yrs and I'm sure you can spare 2 euros of your credit to help her walk again (: so yes, let that be your random act of <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">kindness</span> for today ^^</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Signing out with ARK cuddles and Blessings xxx</span></b></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-78132490811544778902009-07-06T19:38:00.002+02:002009-07-06T19:45:35.069+02:00RenewedThe love He has for me is strong,<div>yet I know I love Him too.</div><div>Atleast, in the way only a human can love.</div><div>For His love is eternal.</div><div>His love is pure.</div><div><br /></div><div>I lift my hands and worship,</div><div>think of my past sins.</div><div>Think of what I have to give up.</div><div>I want to live for Him.</div><div><br /></div><div>The feelings I have are true.</div><div>The feelings I have are strong,</div><div>in You alone Lord.</div><div>Me and Him walking on our journey...</div><div><br /></div><div>Lord, I want to be your servant.</div><div>I pray,</div><div>I want to be your best friend.</div><div>You are my Salvation.</div><div><br /></div><div>So I lift my hands and say,</div><div>"I'm ready for you."</div><div>With hands burning, tears falling, a blank mind and willing heart,</div><div>I give it up to God.</div><div><br /></div><div>No need for tears.</div><div>No need for screams.</div><div>No need for laughs.</div><div>He's here, within me.</div><div><br /></div><div>Where He was.</div><div>Where He' always been.</div><div>Where He always will be.</div><div>Renewed in my life, always and forever!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-19332454206345861252009-06-27T12:27:00.002+02:002009-06-27T12:37:05.287+02:00Chapters, Books and Screen Plays turning into Scripts<div>so...</div><div>I'm trying to close a chapter in my life but hv no idea how to write the ending;</div><div>tbh im not even sure if i should end the chapter or just plainly end the book, to just let everything go. Start a new book and just play a new character.</div><div>All I know is - i want to start a fresh.</div><div>I want the excitement of life to come back to me.</div><div>I want to take off that old dirty mask and just leave it on the table and pile the new pretty yellow costumes ontop of it.</div><div>I want to leave the drama of the old book in the old book and never have to bring it up again.</div><div>I want the bring new friendship through the characters and dust off some of the old ones.</div><div>I want to project my best features and leave the horrible ones to be eaten by the mice backstage.</div><div>I want to go out there and show everyone the best that I can be.</div><div>But most of all I want to reflect the Son. </div><div>The main character in my script.</div><div>I pray He'll always be the main and never in the wings (unless he has a quick change XD)</div><div><br /></div><div>and yes...i no my book has turned into a script but what can i say...I'm a performer ><</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Signing out with theatrical blessings and cuddles xxx</span></b></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-75099206286397980492009-06-23T11:20:00.002+02:002009-06-23T11:54:54.557+02:0020 things I learnt under the knife...<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">1.</span> Ultrasounds are cooool!</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">2.</span> It can be really hard to find a surgeon on a Friday night ><</div><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">3.</span> "O.k you're going to feel a bit sleepy soon"</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>"how long will it take for me to feel...woooooo zzzzzzz"<br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">4.</span> Morphine is my friend ^^</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">5.</span> I shiver frantically for an hr after surgery.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">6. </span>I realised why they ask so many questions before surgery.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">7.</span> Anestesia is not my friend ><</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">8.</span> Learnt how it really feels to actually really throw up water xD</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">9.</span> The gown they give you is actually quite comfy.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">10.</span> Drip = Bessie <3</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">11. </span>2 injections + 1 arm = MASSIVE YELLOW,GREEN & RED BRUISE ><</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">12.</span> Pissing the food that Bessie gave me gives a smooth feeling.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">13.</span> We really use our abs more than we think.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">14.</span> I do not sleep well unless I'm on my side.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">15.</span> If you don't eat and keep your food, the hospital will not discharge you 0.o</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">16.</span> My friends have officially seen me at my worst.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">17.</span> When something internally touches your abdominal area, your intestine's shut down.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">18.</span> They encourage you to fart after surgery xD</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33FFFF;">19.</span> When you look dead and beaten up, your baby cousin will be scared of you ><</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFFF33;">20.</span> All that pain for a 5CM appendix ><</div><div><br /></div><div>oh and...when they see free fluid running aorund in you abdomen...your screwed xD</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF99FF;">Signing off with surgical cuddles and blessings!</span></span></b></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-88246930658501733112009-06-17T11:28:00.003+02:002009-06-17T15:03:58.341+02:00Yellow flowers and Blue rainbows<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.hickerphoto.com/data/media/24/yellow_flowers_T1684.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 145px; CURSOR: pointer; HEIGHT: 97px" alt="" src="http://www.hickerphoto.com/data/media/24/yellow_flowers_T1684.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="COLOR: rgb(51,255,255)">I'm sitting here,crouched.</span><br /><span style="COLOR: rgb(255,255,51)">NO! what did we say...postive things only...dont mention your pain ><</span><br /><span style="COLOR: rgb(51,255,255)">Fineeee, so..im sitting here, listening to disney songs and realising that i have asolutely nothing to do.</span><br /><span style="COLOR: rgb(255,255,51)">What did i just say?</span><br /><span style="COLOR: rgb(51,255,255)">Meh... </span><br />I have decided to try get my positiveness back and be me again...im finding it kinda hard cos im used to d negativity..and feelign sorry for myself. <span style="COLOR: rgb(204,204,255)">*and zip-a-dee-doo-dah just came on xD*</span><br />But like I've realised that the more negative you are about the negative things going on in your life the worse your gonna make it you no?<br /><br /><br /><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center"><span style="COLOR: rgb(255,153,0);font-family:arial;" >-ve + -ve = double -vitiy</span> </div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center"><span style="COLOR: rgb(255,153,0);font-family:arial;" ></span> </div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center"><span style="COLOR: rgb(255,153,0);font-family:arial;" >+ve + -ve= neautral action</span><br /></div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align="left">so in actual fact its always better to try make soemthign positive even if you feel its impossible.<br />Now I started reading a book<span style="COLOR: rgb(255,0,0)"> Steve</span> gave me its bout positive thinking and I know that will get me back on track =) and look I'm already getting there..<br />I really wanna genuinely thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for keeping me in your prayers and wishing me better and coming to visit me and sending me sms or fb messages or phoning...anything and everything helped so much =) I am honestly truly grateful for my friends..and I must admit that even though my whole bday was a fiasco....my friends still managed to make it special and i am eternally grateful for<span style="COLOR: rgb(255,255,51)"> ALL OF YOU!</span><br /><br />Next blog will be all about my freaky experience in a hospital...i might just <span style="COLOR: rgb(51,255,51)">vlog</span> it =P XD<br />IF..your lucky ;)<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.natures-desktop.com/wallpaper-previews/clouds/rainbow-blue-sky.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; WIDTH: 160px; CURSOR: pointer; HEIGHT: 120px" alt="" src="http://www.natures-desktop.com/wallpaper-previews/clouds/rainbow-blue-sky.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; COLOR: rgb(255,153,255)"></span></span><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align="left"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; COLOR: rgb(255,153,255)"></span></span> </div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align="left"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; COLOR: rgb(255,153,255)"></span></span> </div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align="left"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; COLOR: rgb(255,153,255)">Signing out with massive individual cuddles, blessings and smushes! <3</span></span> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-5114780804235870152009-06-10T22:25:00.002+02:002009-06-10T22:33:19.774+02:00Shrug<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7UeRNKmQfl9-3aWkTFij6o3J7SK1xJxT5LtbubgFsDehKzNVTv0zNqS2MAFzFhRaf9D1i8Q7PKw9-lL7YRlMVw6Au1qy4-83kYikE0P5HK4_LGirD_zWVX6AbcK8W2aIaagRiMVXnrc39/s1600-h/1172534352-hug.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5345798356922392946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 142px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 200px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7UeRNKmQfl9-3aWkTFij6o3J7SK1xJxT5LtbubgFsDehKzNVTv0zNqS2MAFzFhRaf9D1i8Q7PKw9-lL7YRlMVw6Au1qy4-83kYikE0P5HK4_LGirD_zWVX6AbcK8W2aIaagRiMVXnrc39/s200/1172534352-hug.jpg" border="0" /></a> No..I don't need special hugs. Tbh I don't really want hugs at all at the moment.<br />Wow, my Blog has completely turned pessimistic.<br />Hmph.. I think I've lost Kai.<br />Incedible, how since my Bday nothings really gone my way.<br />Bleh..is the word I'd use to describe how I feel atm.<br />Interesting, is what you feel when you realise that you've put on a mask.<br />Sigh..there isn't much to undersatnd here.<br />Happiness, hasn't been in my vocab for a while now.<br />Sadness..has.<br /><br />I don't really know what's wrong tbh I'm still trying to figure it out..<br /><br />But till then...<br /><br /><br />I'm outUnknownnoreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-35994655356555041982009-05-31T14:46:00.002+02:002009-05-31T15:04:55.148+02:00i mean SERIOUSLY?!? can my bday GET any worse?!bleh..this is a rant so if your not in the mood of hearing me being emo then im warning u to just shut the window from now >< ok so I knew my bday wasnt gonna be anything special but i didnt think it was gonna be BAD! so..lets start shall we?<br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"> <em>Sunday Lunch</em><br /></span>my mum being d sweetherat that she is tried to organise something for my bday with the family and stuff but no1 could come..so we sed uwijja well just go c my nanna instead and well get some sushi take away..wat happens? the sushi place doesnt open for sunday lucnh..so we sed ok lets try chinese..same thing...so we ended up with a pizza..ok np..until the pizza isnt rlly gud and its given me a bloody tummy ache >< so im not gonna enjoy any cake for the rest of the day<br /><br /><em><span style="color:#ffff33;">Let's Talk about Cake</span></em><br />So my mum wanted to make me a prety cake...once she starts making it the mixer explodes so ye...store bought cake it is >< i mean come on..do u believe it?! XD<br /><br /><em><span style="color:#ffff33;">Saturday Before</span></em><br />This was the day wen everyone was telling my mum that they couldnt come for sunday lunch so my moral was already low. once the evening came along I had my uncle's retirement party so i knew i wouldnt be going out so i sed ok..lets just dress up and hv some free alcohol. At the party my mum tells me i can leave a bit to go c my friends..ok sounds gud..enjoy some of my bday weekend with my friends...that should be gud right?! WRONG! i hardly even spoke to some of my friends..some ppl just pissed me off so much that i just left. So i went off with Matt...what happens? i get the most crushing news in the world..so ye my night is fucked..cant be salvagged.<br /><br /><em><span style="color:#ffff33;">Friday Night</span></em><br />so the plan is to go out with my friends and have a night out...but wats this?! whats been invented..SAC FEST! perfect..all my friends are there and im stuck at home alone..ye perfect..atleast Hillary came for an hour and we talked..i admit..that was nice :) - 1 good thing *woot*<br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"><em>Future?</em></span><br />So tom. the actual day which is suppost to be all perfect...i hv to spend my day in my room studying pure maths for my exam the next day. But wait! thats not the only part of it! I cant even celebrate my bday next weekend...do u know y?<br />Beer olympics on friday..also..youthful worship..and of course Sat and Sunday i hv two whole days of work...so yes ofcourse..i hv so much time to actually meet with my friends and get a little extra love...IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!?!<br /><br />-.-'<br /><em><span style="color:#ffff33;"> Conclusions..</span></em><br />So besides all this i find out one of my relatives might not make it to next week.<br />They found cancer in 2 of my friends relatives.<br />I lost some1 i really love.<br />MY cousin went missing this morning.<br />My wellies arent coming for yet another month ><<br />I have so much to think about that i cant even study anymore so im gonna fail!<br />Oh ye..and i cant take the course i want cos of the screwed up maltese system..so yes..no future now either?!<br />pls note there is more..but cant be mentioned cos its personal..<br /><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">ye...im not signing out with any cuddles or blessings...just a quick note...do NOT mention anything to me this week unless its positive..i dont want to hear it..i cant take it anymore!</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">I DONT WANT ANY HAPPY BDAYS COS IT SURE AS HELL AINT HAPPY ><</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-2830456618578477102009-05-19T23:38:00.003+02:002009-05-19T23:56:03.436+02:00Tempting?As everyone seems to be oging insane...I think its the best time to take advantage of this situation...and...post this o=) ...you know you want to =P<br /><object width="560" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/eaCCkfjPm0o&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/eaCCkfjPm0o&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Today Ive written 3 letters</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">And i think that's the only thing that matters.</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Ive got knowledge coming out of my ears</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">But i think i'd like to stick it up some1's rear.</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Im feeling sick and tired</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">and i've officially decided that its time to be retired.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Bubblesticks and candyfloss,</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Angels wings are never a loss.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Yellow doves and Blue shot glasses</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Are things that should not go up ur asses.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">John mayer is taking his toll on me</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">And im very worried that im gonna get stung by a bee.</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Im in dire need of some awesome wellies</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">but all i keep seeing are my teachers bellies ><</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Cutting my hair this weekend</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Not sure on were to let the length end.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">Bubblesticks and candyfloss,<br />Angels wings are never a loss.<br />Yellow doves and Blue shot glasses<br />Are things that should not go up ur asses</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">I think its time to say goodbye.</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">But my skirt is stuck and i can't unzip my fly ><</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">So i'll wave and sign off.</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Another awesome update? *cough*</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">I Think my creative side is getting the better of me.</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">It's definately time to hv some tea!</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">Signing off with Poetic blessings and cuddles xxx</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-59589957443993680852009-05-17T21:40:00.004+02:002009-05-17T22:26:56.261+02:00Schiz-ish?<span style="color:#ffff33;">ok so yes...i'm dying from all these studies! </span><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">But Kai there rlly isn't all that much, you just have to actually study and not do other things.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">THERE IS ALOT OK?!?! we're talking A-LEVEL here! xP</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Fine. OK. Whatever you say...but seriously...this isn't what we want to blog about is it?</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">No -.-' i dont think so...</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Good girl =) now...</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">WAIT!</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">What >< ?</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">I want my new yellow hoodie first o=)</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Fine! Come on, hurry it up</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">OK I'm done^^</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">*sigh* As I was saying, stress...exa-</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">BLEHH! BORING!</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Do you mind!?!? I'm trying to Blog here?!?</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">But ranting about these things isn't entertaining. Can we talk about something else like...i dont know...missing Krissie...or buying those gorgeous yellow wellies?!?!</span></div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhciX0ZZNtNcjAahU6hYyfmU4xdEIebAf-u21-VLANGHHOycqk_wVAaIylI16PB1aVG-9maF1REwQFYonOadC0nHa3en5m9v0-TB9zViq_YrF6VIF7leSAX3OBWPcKgw0Gna2-S0MAT7lM-/s1600-h/wellies+%5E%5E.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5336889465583488562" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 160px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhciX0ZZNtNcjAahU6hYyfmU4xdEIebAf-u21-VLANGHHOycqk_wVAaIylI16PB1aVG-9maF1REwQFYonOadC0nHa3en5m9v0-TB9zViq_YrF6VIF7leSAX3OBWPcKgw0Gna2-S0MAT7lM-/s200/wellies+%5E%5E.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="color:#33ffff;">We are trying to express our feelings here not update the readers, it my time to rant. Let me!</span><br /></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">NO! I have as much say in this as you do and I think we should talk about how awesome Y4J was last night ^^ or how hilarious the Eurovision was XD</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Stop it! I know what you're doing! I'm the smart one here! ACCESS DENIED!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">I'm merely stating that I think that the dress I bought yest. for the wedding is completely gorgeous that's all...I didn't mean anythign by it i promise...i want olives =(</span></div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMCIR69lyyXYHVZkINbHlDZfM2chD0wdfkXt6RExt0z-MnMw_w9NRGemS2WUINKhTghA5VOg3yE-s11PUHh0zomxQtx1SctmNd1TTE6SVbfR8gfjNAkv7zlygAkLYa15xFPZla14aBSIjX/s1600-h/4160_87735841539_586036539_2300684_7233383_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5336890443662732274" style="WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMCIR69lyyXYHVZkINbHlDZfM2chD0wdfkXt6RExt0z-MnMw_w9NRGemS2WUINKhTghA5VOg3yE-s11PUHh0zomxQtx1SctmNd1TTE6SVbfR8gfjNAkv7zlygAkLYa15xFPZla14aBSIjX/s200/4160_87735841539_586036539_2300684_7233383_n.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="color:#33ffff;">IIII am merely stating that YOU are a peasant. Now shut up! As I was trying to say before I was RUDELY interupted, exams start in 8 days but it's not really the point.</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Then get to the point! ma! you take forever to say something!</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">*rolls eyes* Exams aren't really the main thing that are stressing me out at the moment.</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Is it the fact that you start work at Hilton the day after you finish exams?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">NO!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Or is because your family is driving you insane?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Well kinda..but no!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Is it cos you've been with Matt for 5months and your still not sick of him?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Goh! No!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">UH! It's cos you're Ipod imploded isn't it?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">STOP IT!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Really? not that? How about the fact that you started private lesson last week and you were 30mins late to your first lesson and you gave off a horrible impression?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">WILL YOU PLEASE LET ME TALK?!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">No =) not until I hit the spot..now, is it because you finally realised what Jesus wants you to do and it's kinda freaking you out?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Yes! Now let me explain.</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">OK I'll shut up now. But I must say the blue and yellow make the blog look green =(</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">You are so trying my patience here! So, yes...erm...basically what she said but I'd like to add a "please pray for me" and a "if you feel God telling you ANYTHING that concerns me, I want to know, even if its insane ok?"</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">OK ^^</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">NOT YOU!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Sorry =(</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">*rolls eyes*</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Are we done yet?</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">Yes =) Anythign you want to add before we sign out?</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Ermmm...*looks around the room* I want yellow shoes? o=)</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">*shakes head in disapproval* OK so we're signing off wit-</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">WAIT!</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">AHHHHHH! WHAT?!?!</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">I wanna say it =(</span></div><div><span style="color:#33ffff;">FINE! BABY XP</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">=)</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffff33;">Signing off with blue and yellow cuddles! xxxx</span></div><div><br /><br /></div><div>P.S THAT's how you update a Blog =] XD</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-11644503394105300092009-04-13T15:57:00.003+02:002009-04-13T16:09:38.347+02:00Scared?hey guys<br />so basically...having had my life shaken yest. ive gained a kinda "new perspective" on things. but anyhu...<br />ok so yest. my doctor told me the strangest things...one of the things he sed is wat ill be focusing on today. He told me that my mind i naturally worrying about something but my reasoning [being so relaxed] isn't letting it. And this litle scenario is causing conflict in my brain and giving me loads of headaches and a rlly bad time.<br />So basically my head is gonna remain being weird till my mind and reason come to an agreement and settle their little fight. Thing is, it's either gonna end in my finally figuring out what is worrying me so much or d opposite, being immune to my worries.<br />Yes, this is probably rlly confusing but w/e it is im scared.<br />Im scared of never finding out wat im worrying bout.<br />Im scared cos i dont want to be immune to worries.<br />Im scared that this conflict will never leave and just get worse.<br />Im scared to no wat im worrying about.<br />Im scared that watever is in my mind is gonna effect me badly.<br />Im scared to worry about anything cos it will only make things worse.<br />Im scared that there is nothing to worry about and its all in mind.<br />But most of alll im scared cos....<br /><br />Im scared.<br /><br />Prayers r asked for plsUnknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6373420438585668318.post-81428282587642548192009-04-06T21:17:00.002+02:002009-04-06T21:39:56.793+02:00Updatesok so ive decided to give u all an update cos i no ur all so interested in my life =) XD and i wanted u to all notice my new sexy template xD<br />ok so these r things ive discovered about myself and ive adapted to my life..here we go...<br />*look out for confusion*<br /><ol><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">reading is fun =o!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">it's ok to wear more than 3 colours xD</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">if u don't like what i say, wear or do...don't complain..just walk away =P</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">pv= OVER RATED!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">which group do i belong to? XD</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">yellow <3</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">short hair :'(</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">financialness = MINUS!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">DANCE!! =D</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">having a big social life does not leave enough time for nerdifying be4 exams!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">y4j + community= confusion XD</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">skirts n legging r d best thing to wear during worship =)</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">its ok to remain in a relationship beyond 4mnths xD</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">it seems achie is never going to get out of my life!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">yellow ford ka, where art thou?!?!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">SUN <3</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">most of d blogs i want to write end up on d Y4J blog xD</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">need to start carring a dictionary with me</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">havent done anything on my to-do list for 2009!!?!</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffff33;">i want my 4th driving lesson pls!!</span></li></ol><p>ok so thats it...sry for confusing u xD</p><p><span style="color:#ff99ff;"><strong>Signing out with 20 updated cuddles and blessings! xxx</strong></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com6