Kisses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey guys and girls!! well 4 those hu know me well enough..ur gonna be amased or think im crying wolf..and for those hu dont know me much this is a chance for u to get to know me...

so..ur probably thinking oh God kai feels liek getting off..or somthing like that well ur wrong!!...its actually something so diff!

so lately i ve been thinking bout getting off but not wanting it but understanding d meaning of it and how God wanted us to use it...and how ive used it in such a wrong way

ok so basically there isnt any point of hiding it...last yr i went kiss-crazy and hit d record of guys i got off with...im not vry proud of it but i did it..mhemmx tamel..and i mean last yr my mind was revolved alot (until soul survivor) around kissing and like most of my goal for 2007 were getting off with diff. ppl or in diff. ways...and wen i look bk and i think i actually suceeded i feel sick at myself...and think have i rlly just wasted this precious thing that God gave us?...i mean no offence to any1 i kissed ta xD dont take it personal...but anyhu..as far as i can recall in d yr 2007 i got off with around 15 guys...now some of u might say illa wat a bit...x'ageb...and some might say *cough* whore *cough*..i dont rlly care..past is past..and for me it was too much especially since out of those only 4 were actually boyfriends of guys i was dating...but enough gossiping buot myself..i just wanted to give u a picture of how i was ok..emfesise on d WAS!!! lol..any hu by d time s.s came around i realised wat i was doing wrong and prevented it hehe...until my next bf came along..and i must admit..compared to a normal bf i did restrict myself which is a very gud start i personally think...but anyhu..recently ive been going into getting off being d centre again...but i havent taken any action to it yet,..which i intend on NOT doing..and infact instead ive been discovering wat a kiss should rlly mean..and not in d way like u get those chain emails xD like if he kisses u here he means this...bla bla bla..that bull crap...so a kiss should be a sign of love...and it shouldnt be wasted on some random excesse hormoned guy u meet in pv...or girl for that reason..cos i forget that guys read this too xD....a kiss to an extent shouldnt even be given to a guy ur just dating/seeing..i mean i think a true kiss should be saved for a bf that has become ur best friend...and should be given at a perfect time and not just at a cinema...im very romantic and one thing im proud of is that every 'first kiss' ive had with a bf has always had a senes of romance in it...guys a kiss is a gift from God to show a person that u love them...and not some guy in pv that u want them....so next time u htink..uff i wanna get off!! think of my post and say no..be patient..jesus is preparing some1 for me..i should save this for them...and for all those lip-virgins XD out there dont fret!!! and dont waste ur first kiss..be patient..guys i rlly believe that God is preparing soem1 out there for each and every1 of us...and i mean seriously preparing...making them either into a gentlemen hu will treat u like a princess or a tru woman of God who will protect u in everyway she knows how...

basically i wanna say that ive decided to calm down on everything atm and i wanted to show u how God is showing me new things threw my singleness and im rlly appreciating them..and sharing them with u guys..be honoured..it took GUTS to say wat i sed ok!!

gbu!

Signign off with kissable cuddles and blessings :P

Scheiden??

Hey guys..well im suppost to be studying German atm but i rlly dont feel like!! grr...i start MOCS tom...bleh!!..anyhu...well...lets talk bout my weekend shall we?...fri was rlly boring..d only fun thing was talking to Zoe on d fon for like a long time hehe..luv u pupa...sat sucked big hairy balls...it was suppost to be a rlly gud day and every plan made backfired, well another lesson learned from:

"we make plans but the Lord determines our steps..."

it happens to me quite alot actually...i got that quote a few weeks after i converted and i always use it..its quite useful...anyhu...im not in d best of moods at all guys...i actually think im going out a bit for some fresh air..maybe go meet jean and joe on their date xD this is how i felt last night hehe... but interpret it cos its not so easy to realise hehe

something struck me yest at. y4j..u no d talk of GO FISH...d dude said that...eventually everything dies..so there isnt a point in caring bout anything of d world...and that can be taken in such a depressing way hehe but it makes sense..we should b constantly praying to get close to God and not ask God for things u no? i think sometimes we can all be pretty selfish..and im d first person to be this way believe me..guys we rlly need to focus on God and he will just move us along..like we r a baby in d trolley and God is our dad pushing d trolley hehe..just enjoy d ride guys and dont get off and push d trolley ur self cos a young child always finds it hard to stir d trolley in d right direction...hope u understood me..hehe..sry that just came to mind know hehe...anyhu..i wanted to leave u with this video..its from d community weekend..its bout this guy hu spent 23 minuted in hell..enjoy... this is d second part..if ur interested go search for d rest on youtube

Diamond in the Rough...

hey guys..
so..let me introduce my poem...i wrote it during a quiet time near some of my cell grp after digging at d BIG DIG and well i have been too lazy to post it but finally found some time to..so here it goes :) hope you like it...oh btw this came to me as i was looking at d only marble i found hehe..the title is d name of it..

Trying to reach the surface,
Trying to find my purpose,
Not knowing what I'm gonna find...
Praying the sun will be kind!

This is me,
It's who I'll be!
I'm scratched and dented,
Full of bubbles of tears
but too scared to show my fears...

People step on me,
Not realizing I'm there...
Have you dug deep enough?
Did you realise I'm in the rough?

You see a shiny
piece of me.
Could this be it?
Am I free?

You pick me up.
Your hands shaped like a cup,
Rub off my dirt...
This is my new birth!

He found me!
Could I really be free?
I'm his diamond in the rough...
And in His eyes I'm more than enough!!

Signing out with shiny cuddles and blessings!! xxx

Carnivalness!!!

hey guys

this is gonna be my longest post ive decided :D hehe..well i want to start with a big thanks to GABRIEL for fixing my comp :D so now i can blog all i want i can read my emails and do updates and everythign normally on my comp :D YEY!! im so happy ive been updating since last night..like non-stop hehe

anyhu...d weekend was amzing i rlly enjoyed it :D i was rlly dreading coming thinking..uff im gonna feel all new since i havent been to community since december and stuff and i will feel awkward singing on worship team and stuff but as soon as i entered d topaz and i saw those first faces of friends i thought to myself "im finally bk home" u guys rlly made my weekend extra special i rlly appreciate it :D...d 60-70's night was just hillarious :D if any1 has some pics of it i want them!! i must say that d outfits were out of this world!! and i laughed so much!!! with mc hammer performer to beetles to nerds and greece ppl and all those hippies and 60's ladies just hillarious!! :D THANKS FOR AN AMZING WEEKEND GUYS!! and a BIG CLAP for JESUS for all the amazing things He has done through that weekend :D can i tell u guys? im so sore atm lol i dunno y but d weekend rlly strained me xD and man i rlly sang my heart out...its so weird i was rlly annoyed with some of d songs sung cos i was like "oh no not this again" kinda thing but i still gave it all i had and its so cool cos on sat i was hearing myself on d amp. and i was like wait ta thats not me :S and then i changed a lyric on purpose to c if it was actually me and it was! it was so fun man my voice had changed some how...from my actual voice till it reached d amp it was like changed :D XD anyhu..enough bout d weekend...we continue..sry sar couldnt resist putting that pic :P

Anyhu..on to monday :D..well monday..i woke up late...rlly late xD and i went shopping for shoes which i am about to do again after i finish this post xD and d most imp. part of monday was d Y4J CARNIVAL PARTY :D

i was rlly annoyed at first cos i was going late and leaving early but i rlly enjoyed it :D and u know wat i was? i was a CANVAS hehe and d pics ur seeing are wat drawn or writen..u c i took one of mig's old shirts (cos im small and i neded a big one) and i took my higlighters and permanent markers and every person i sed hi to i told them to write/draw on me and it have some rlly cool pics :D so im rlly loving y4j's imagination..

i rlly enjoyed myself...from rob and glenn's experiment that back fired to chasing bob xD to secrets :P and spilling coke on Rache and saying "melting" several times xD and staying still every 5 mins so some1 could write and of course pete constantly trying to write on me xP i rlly laughed and enjoyed it and i must say d best costume must go to brooks!! i mean come on look at him! isnt he hilarious?!?!

hehe..so lets continue shall we? wen i got home that night i find a pretty note on my desk from Gab telling me he fixed my comp :) hehe and thats wen i started updating hehe :D..guys be grateful for ur internet :D hehe..so today at around 11 me and zoe went up to jc to meet Bob and Rache cos they had lots of free's..it was so fun :D i also met up with lots of ex form 5's and other y4jers :D hehe it was so fun..i also found out that joe went and played with his digeridoo there too xD with jean hehe..i was gonna go to sok with bob but i had to leave half way through d lesson so i ended up going out with debz abit and met mc while talking hehe..guys they have an amazing chapel!!! and their food smells just amazing:D...im dying for 6th form seriously!!! and now i have doubts bout dls cos i rlly like jc..ah! issa we c wat d BIG BOSS wants hehe
now i must leave u all as i must go buy shoes :D hehe tc everyone!!

Signing out with extremely long posted cuddles and blessings :D

HELLOOOOOOO

*relief* i can write this post as long as i want xD..im on achie's comp :D hehe
well i want to start off with a HAPPY BDAY to achie,bob nd mig(my bro)..too many bday today...
also i want to add that life has been so hectic these last few days!! AHHHHH!!! mocs coming up soon on d 11th...but this weekennd is all about relaxing and having fun..because..im going to d MARANATHA COMMUNITY WEEKEND...ill be bunking with lara, angie and ester...should be fun ^^ hehe although i promised my mum id still study so im getting some past pprs and my physics file along xD
today...today was such A DAY....school finished at 12 cos d younger forms have mid-yearlies....our classes went as usual..d only diff. was that instead of 9 lessons we had 4 lessons...d first to 2HR long and d other 2 were 50 mins...not so bad...during d science lessons we did our practicals..guys i have 14 marks in d bag for chemie and 13 for bio xD be proud :P lol

well i put this video cos it was d next best thing..i actually wanted devotion but i didnt find it on youtube so i put this ^^ hehe hope u enjoy...
so today i was making achie's card and i was thinking of like how long ive known her and looking bk at life and man....so much time has passed...and till now i still dont regret anything ive done which is awesome...cos d thing is my 2 motos of life or combined..and they go like this
"dont regret anything in life because everything happens for a reason"
and ive always thought and wondered about d day wen i actually say i regret something..it has to be something rlly regretable for me to regret it and thank God till now nothing that bad has happened yet :D
hehe..anyway i should go now...get last things ready for d party tonight
:D hehe

Signing off with devotional cuddles n blessings xxx