Simple Bubbles

For Whoever Might still be reading...

2011-06-26T12:15:00.002+02:00

So its been a while since I've blogged, this year has been honestly crazy!
I thought I'd have time to get back into it after my 1st semester exams but once those were over it seemed like 2nd semester exams were already there!! I've been getting loads of comments during the months I haven't been blogging and I've decided it's time to start blogging regularly again...I'm not sure HOW regularly but I think I'm gonna try post my thoughts on this blog.
I learnt so much this year that I feel its the right thing to do =)
Share the answers that I've discovered about my doubts!
Theology is really having an effect on me and well for whoever is still reading...I think I'm really going to start getting back into this so stayed tuned (:

Bullets

2010-11-29T22:43:00.003+01:00

So lately I've been learning a lot of small things that i don't want to forget or things I'd like to adapt to my life and I don't want to forget them so i've decided to jot the down here seeing as I doubt anyone reads blogs anymore I think its the best place to write them were they can remain rather personal and at the same time might touch someone (:

so today's lesson:

I became accustomed to looking at the big picture and looking at what God wanted for my future and just seeking out the goal and just preparing for that and I never realized that I need to work for the now not the future so I've decided to take God on a day by day basis by praying for people on the spot, instead of forgetting to do it later and reading the bible because I feel like instead of waiting till I have time to have a whole quiet time session.
Yes, I'm gonna try work on the now. Do everything there and then and stop delaying things.

Wish me luck!

New Things

2010-08-11T19:52:00.008+02:00

I'm trying out new things with this blog. Ive been a bit created, ive tried the updating on my life, ive tried the random things that happen to me that can only happen to me. Now I trying something else...
this morning a bunch of my friends went up to soul survivor and for the first time in 3 years i didnt join them, and as weird as it feels to be in malta in what i had completely forgotten is the busiest week of the year, yes i am actually ok with this.
Im hanging out with people i dont often spend time with and im doing things i dont normally do. Ive decided that every new and awesome thing i do i shall write. So yes, ill be updating this post regularly (:

Day 1:
Playstation 3 at Petes :D
watched 21 XD
Selling energy saving lights at a camera shop xD
Actually walking it home :o
spring cleaning! XD

Day 2:
i touched over 70 cameras and honestly learnt too much if its possible xD
Shopping and hafna bonding with vanessa ^^
i bought jeggings. 'nough said XD
oh and awesome shoes :D
got some really pretty visions at community ^^

Day3:
sold 10 cameras this week ^^
i changed my first diaper! XD
got to star gaze in the middle of the sea ^^
got to sing-a-long with christian music coming from the boat next to us who just happened to have a boat full of australian christians xD
played with kiddies all day :D
took some awesome pics (:
slept on the boat

Day 4
first dive of the year!! :D so grand ^^
saw 5 star fish
caught my first octopus ever xD
collected shells ^^
almost caught a fish XD
saw flying fish :D
changed more diapers xD
sailed home (:
watched ss on God tv XD
slept at val :D

Day 5
woke up and made friends with Val's mum xD
made pear bread which came amazing (Y)
finally watched repo men
had a mini ss ministry session in my living room :D

Day 6
xeba cameras yet again! XD
went up to bugibba and studied with van all day ^^
bbq at becky's! :D

so yes...a nice random week full of activities and i enjoyed every second of it ^^ <3

signing out.

"This is the first day of the rest of my life"

2010-07-24T15:49:00.002+02:00

This is the first day of the rest of my life. As I walk through those doors I know there is no turning back. I've left everything behind. I have no regrets. Moving to New York was the best decision I have ever made. My opportunity has finally come and I'm not wasting one minute of it on doubt.
I burst through the doors and stand with my head held high and a smirk on my face. The spotlight reaches me and I wait as I see all the heads turn to face me. They've found me. Thousands of people sitting with their heads turned, looking at me. Waiting. Expecting.
I open my mouth and the lyrics jump out onto the floor and rush to the stage. They fill the room with an excitement and joy that lifts everyones spirit. I start walking down the aisle, looking at the faces of those watching me. Some look confused, probably wondering why I've started from the back entrance instead of on stage. But what is a show without spontaneity ?
I'm reaching the climax of my song. I've reached the stage. I start walking up the stairs. My eyes haven't left the audience. I walk towards centre-stage. My song is finishing. I must woe them again. They will remember my name after this show! I will not be forgotten. I look down. I've reached centre-stage. I slowly look back up at the audience and sing the highest and loudest note I have ever sung in my whole life. I stop. I smile. I try to catch my breathe and wait. A few moments of silence.
A sea of people rise and applaud me. I am taken aback by the volume of screams and claps coming from the audience. I've never sung in front of thousands of people before. The lights go off and the curtains close in front of me. I take a minute to absorb everything that has just went on. I heard the hustle and bustle of people grabbing their coats and slowly making their way to the nearest exits.
I take my last deep breath and begin to walk towards the backstage. I am greeted and congratulated by millions of pearly white teeth on all those smiling faces. I've done well. I know.
After a good amount of time thanking people, I finally make my way up to my dressing room. I sit at my make-up desk and stare at the girl who was once too scared to even sing in front of her own mother. She's still hidden behind all that foundation and those false eyelashes, but she's finally almost gone. I've come a long way since then and with this major opportunity, many more will come. So I say ,"Hello!" to fame and "Goodbye." to fear and the life I used to lead.

Patience?

2010-07-21T22:44:00.002+02:00

Willkommen!
Well, as some of you might know, 2 weeks after my dear Ellie was brought to me she was taken away and was re-given to me 2 weeks later after being analyzed and fixed by a technician! so yes...even thought i've had my beautiful laptop for a month, she's only actually been at me for 2 weeks now. I am just full of luck aren't I?
Also, for those of you who have not heard yet, I passed all my A-levels! yes yes awesome I know BUT [ yes there is ALWAYS a but with me] I didn't get into uni because I am 2 points under...yes funny isn't it? It has to be me right? There is always a catch when it comes to my life isn't there xD
Want to know what tops it all off? Today was the only day i got off work in the whole summer [excluding weekends] so I could go to the student advisor to see if there is anything I could do about my "narrow fail" so I got all excited about spending a few minutes talking to the advisor and off to the beach to enjoy my day off but ALAS! Little did I realise that half of Malta decided that they want to know what they're going to do in life today [and I thought I was the only person who didn't know that yet, silly me]. So yes, I picked a number (166) and sat my ass down and opened up my book and began reading when i heard the number 23 being called out and I thought oh dear I'm going to be here for an hour or two but I said it's ok I'm a patient person and I've got my book - I'm settled. Little did I know that my 2 hours turned into 7 and a half most wasteful hours of my life ><
To top that, my mum came in the last half hour and was moaning for she had to wait half an hour for what ending up being a 5 minute conversation with an advisor who had a cold and sneezed in my face >< \Mother felt bad for me afterwards so she took me to the point for a bit of retail therapy but of course there is another BUT! 5 minutes after I got into the point I start seeing people rush out...why you ask? a fire drill! And they were closing early 'cos of it.
Laugh, honestly, it's freaking hilarious at how much bordering bad luck I've had this last week ><
So I say to myself, how far can my patience take me? How much longer is God going to test my patience?

Any bets?

Ellie

2010-06-27T23:45:00.003+02:00

YEY my laptop finally arrived and she is an utter beaut ^^

This is just a little intro about her...

I've been waiting for almost a year to finally get a laptop and infact I've been waiting for her for so long that I feel like I've had her for years when infact we've only been together for 3 days now

I've decided to name her Ellie because my computer broke down around the time the film UP! came out and I fell in love with the character "Ellie" and decided what better way to make a tribute to her than by naming my laptop after her ^^

so yes...say hello to Ellie!!

she'll hopefully be bringing you more blog posts and much more of my thoughts out in the open...don't hate her for it ok?!?

Signing off with pro blessings and cuddles xxx

Minute Blogs

2010-06-08T21:24:00.002+02:00

Just informing anyone who reads that I will not be blogging until I have a new computer due to the fact that this computer is crashing and blogs pain it for some reason..my poor Sasha is taking her last breaths it seems :(

Yes I know I said I'll try harder to blog more often but I can't do much about this sorry =/

Birthday beginnings

2010-06-02T20:37:00.004+02:00

With 192 facebook birthday wishes,

15 birthday messages,

14 birthday cards,

5 birthday calls,

3 birthday visits,

2 birthday cakes and

1 awesome birthday outing and birthday shopping spree, my 18th is finally over (:

I wanted my 18th to be the launch of my blog- renewed.

Compared to last year my birthday week has been great! I just want to make a shout out to all of you who made my birthday so special ^^ every single text/wall post/visit/call/outing/present made me feel so loved. A week ago I was sad because I honestly thought that my birthday would just be another day to me and I would have wasted my 18th but seriously...i feel so cared about and thought of ^^ so yey!

My birthday celebrations started off on Sunday morning with a family bbq for lunch. I was honestly so touched when my aunt told me that my 4 year old cousin woke up and told her that that day was my special day and that they had to do everything to make me feel special on that day. And boy did she make me feel special ^^

By the end of the evening I was up in Bidnija having an awesome all girls sleepover ^^ which was awesome but was kinda interrupted by the guys...I'll write a story about that in my next blog.

Anyway, coming morning/afternoon I found myself back home catching up on sleep with an evening spent bonding with my new friend Vass XD till I got a surprise visit from the Xmun.

My actual birthday was spent almost always out. My morning was spent in Valletta with the mother on a shopping spree ^^ while after recuperating, my early afternoon was spending driving :D followed by a visit from Zoe and a visit to the Z.E's house. My evening began with a walk on the front with Zoe, a photo shoot at the LOVE sign and a joining of the Zinga (:

My night ended with photo shoots all over the Bay street area and a chat with several girlies on the bay street roof. I kinda felt like i was 13 again xD

So that's it for today. Hopefully I'll be coming here more often, especially once I get a new laptop ^^ and with this I leave you! *sorry*

Signing off with 18 cuddles and blessings

The Good Times

2009-12-29T13:58:00.002+01:00

A few months ago I caroled my way though the horrid things that happened just in summer. Some things actually got worse and the summer literally dragged on till the last week of December. BUT! I promised myself that in order to keep my positive side alive I would write 10 good things that happened to me through out the whole year. This was so unbelievably hard I was shocked...but I managed =) so here it goes..

1.) I made some really great friends & got closer to some older ones.

2.) I got so much closer to God.

3.) I gave a talk [something I've wanted to do for a really long time]

4.) My baby cousin was born - Bettina <3

5.) I had a great time at Soul Survivor.

6.) Zoe came back to Malta (:

7.) My true friends were really there for me when I needed them.

8.) I had 3 amazing live-ins [G.G, Approaching The Throne, I <3>

9.) God used me in ways I never thought could be done.

10.) I finally made friends with my father.

So yes these are my 10..not in any particular order but looking at them makes me think that the disaster of the year I had was not that bad just because I gained those 10 things. So I thank you all for being my friends and being there for me.

I promise I try hard to truly and really love you all =)

Signing out with 10 positive cuddles and blessings xxx

What I did this Christmas...

2009-12-26T12:57:00.003+01:00

Wow this feels weird..haven't blogged here in a while. To be fair my computer has been living on it's last string for a long time and I'm literally waiting for it to implode now.

So yesterday was Christmas...so....MELLY CLISTMAS! =D ^^ For those of you that have been around me during this festive season should have heard me singing my Christmas anthem of this year - if you haven't, it means you haven't paid attention to me so SHAME ON YOU! - and the song is..

"Last Christmas I gave you my heart

and the very next day you gave it away.

This year, to save me from tears

I gave it to someone specialer!" ^^

Let me explain to you why this was this years anthem.

Well for the last few years I haven't exactly been single for Christmas and even if I was, the mentality of my mind was to find a guy a.s.a.p and I thank God so much that this year is different. If you know me well, you'd know I've really been trying to break out of my mentality that I need a guy in my life to be happy and I'm trying to focus on just being single and just enjoying leaning on God because after all, He is the only guy who won't break my heart. Which is the point of the song. Last year I willingly gave my heart to a boy and this year I gave my heart to God. Every year that I've been a christian I've always tried to give my heart to God but there was always the chaos of Christmas and stuff but this year was totally different.

This Christmas eve I went home after mass and I was there from 11pm-1am just me alone in my house and I finally managed to really and truly offer my heart up to God [and tell Him happy birthday in peace and quiet :P]. It felt really weird because I felt that my heart was so broken so dirty so not pure that God really deserved such a more epic present, but guys, that's all He wants. Our heart is who we are. It's what motivates us, it's what makes our purest decisions. Without it we are not ourselves.

So yes...the point of this is to encourage you to do the same. Christmas is over now but the new year is still to come.

I've shared my experience.

I hope you can have a similar one =)

Signing out with heartful cuddles and blessings xxx

Did we really have summer?

2009-10-08T21:36:00.003+02:00

ok so school's back in and its really weird cos I honestly feel like I never left. Kinda like summer just never happened ><>ok so let me explain...i just wanted u all to know how weird i found out my body is...so basically after lots of tests and stuff my doctors finally figured out that most of my illnesses/allergies/random weird reactions come from stress ><

So apparently since I'm such a relaxed person on the outside my stress and emotions don't really come out and I don't really have a stress reliever so my body reacts to stress by mentally and physically killing me. So yes, my body's logic is to cause me pain to get rid of stress which evidentally causes more stress...my brain sucks ><

Recently I've been figuring out that because my summer was so horrible and because I haven't really expressed how I truly felt about everything that's happened, my body is hiding my memories of this summer....it's really scary...like anything that I try remember that would hurt me to remember this summer is not coming up! It's taking me forever to remember anything about this summer!

And also, another thing I figured out my body is doing is, that it's controlling my character like I'm naturally clinging onto random people so that I won't have to think about anything and just be happy because I feel safe with them...or I'm automatically turning my head and ignoring people out of pure fear that they might remind me of summer and it's scary because my mind will literally NOT let me talk to them(but in cases were I've had to its just been horribly awkward and frightening)...or...and this is the scariest one...if my mind isn't sure if the person is good or bad for me...it just immediately goes blank for those 5 looong seconds and then I either jump on the person or look away- just till my mind decides - and i rlly think im scaring ppl...and I promise I don't mean to...but it's how my body is reacting till everything cools down..so this blog is a pure apology to anyone I'm ignoring or annoying or clinging to at the moment =)

P.S: I have a CT scan and a signed certificate from a Neurologist stating that I'm not clinically insane by saying all that I've said in this blog xD good night...

Signing out with jumping cuddles and blessings xxx

12 Days of Summer

2009-09-16T21:52:00.002+02:00

Taken from the famous "The 12 Days Of Christmas" I have summed up my summer...

1 Funeral
2 Break-ups
3 Nights in a hospital bed
4 Hospital visits
5 Mourning people in my house
6 Sunny days spent at the beach out of all summer
7 Working days at Hilton
8 Day vacation - cancelled
9 Weeks of recovery from an operation
10 Approximate full days that I've seen my brother all summer
11 Weeks of studying for a resit
12 Sick visits from the doctor

I write this list out of psycotic humour...go with it

Signing off with 12 cuddles and blessings xxx

The List

2009-09-03T13:26:00.002+02:00

ok so today i was looking at my list of things to do in '09, and realised that a lot of things change. Basically in January I write a list of things that i want to do throughout the year, I do this because otherwise I'll do nothing xD Insomma, today I was looking at it and after ticking off a lot of things I realised that a lot of things I actually don't want to do anymore or found out I can't do this year anyway. Through all this I realised how easily things change and how you just have to seize the moment 'cos so much changes so fast its incredible!So yes, I'm determined on finishing my list as soon as possible and keep my septemebr extremely full xD Oh and I'm employed xD with yellow pages <3>

so...to end this blog i just want to ask...

Anyone want to go canoe-ing with me o=)?

Signing off with lists full of cuddles and blessings!

Books that are of real.

2009-08-21T23:24:00.002+02:00

So, after some time of messing up and just rummaging through old scripts, by the grace of God I've started a new one.

I'm only in the first chapter here but to be honest till now it looks quite nice (:

Very curious to just skip to the end and see what happens but hey thats just in my nature.

All I know is that I've put the romance novels away for a while and this seems to be quite the adventure story.

Who knows? Maybe they'll be a little bit of romance at the end.

But to be honest, I'm happy, I couldn't care less about that stuff at the moment, living everyday as it comes in the freedom of Christ.

I've handed over the pen to a new author.

He's name is Jesus.

I hope you like He's writing, 'cause I know I'm sure as hell enjoying it (:

Signing out with cheering cuddles and blessings xxx

Bitter Batter Better

2009-07-28T23:08:00.003+02:00

Good, Better, Best. May you never rest, till you're Good gets Better and your Better gets Best (:

I dunno about you guys but at St.Michael's we used to sing that a lot in Jr.5 and I remembered it today ^^

Ok so, I've decided to be that little more positive in my life and try do a random act of kindness everyday. Not just hekk but like to better myself and to be nicer to people in general 'cause I noticed I'm tending to the more agressive angry side of life atm.

Also, I've created a book where, each night before I go to bed, I am going to write 3 positive things that happened to me during that day. I have to come up with 3, even on a really horrible day I am not going to let myself skip a day! BUT! I can only write 3 to keep myself humble and to balance things out. Whoever wants to take my idea is more than welcome and that is, after all, why I am blogging about it!

Also, I'd really appreciate it if u visit this site. The girl has been a friend of mine for 6yrs and I'm sure you can spare 2 euros of your credit to help her walk again (: so yes, let that be your random act of kindness for today ^^

Signing out with ARK cuddles and Blessings xxx

Renewed

2009-07-06T19:38:00.002+02:00

The love He has for me is strong,

yet I know I love Him too.

Atleast, in the way only a human can love.

For His love is eternal.

His love is pure.

I lift my hands and worship,

think of my past sins.

Think of what I have to give up.

I want to live for Him.

The feelings I have are true.

The feelings I have are strong,

in You alone Lord.

Me and Him walking on our journey...

Lord, I want to be your servant.

I pray,

I want to be your best friend.

You are my Salvation.

So I lift my hands and say,

"I'm ready for you."

With hands burning, tears falling, a blank mind and willing heart,

I give it up to God.

No need for tears.

No need for screams.

No need for laughs.

He's here, within me.

Where He was.

Where He' always been.

Where He always will be.

Renewed in my life, always and forever!

Chapters, Books and Screen Plays turning into Scripts

2009-06-27T12:27:00.002+02:00

so...

I'm trying to close a chapter in my life but hv no idea how to write the ending;

tbh im not even sure if i should end the chapter or just plainly end the book, to just let everything go. Start a new book and just play a new character.

All I know is - i want to start a fresh.

I want the excitement of life to come back to me.

I want to take off that old dirty mask and just leave it on the table and pile the new pretty yellow costumes ontop of it.

I want to leave the drama of the old book in the old book and never have to bring it up again.

I want the bring new friendship through the characters and dust off some of the old ones.

I want to project my best features and leave the horrible ones to be eaten by the mice backstage.

I want to go out there and show everyone the best that I can be.

But most of all I want to reflect the Son.

The main character in my script.

I pray He'll always be the main and never in the wings (unless he has a quick change XD)

and yes...i no my book has turned into a script but what can i say...I'm a performer ><

Signing out with theatrical blessings and cuddles xxx

20 things I learnt under the knife...

2009-06-23T11:20:00.002+02:00

1. Ultrasounds are cooool!

2. It can be really hard to find a surgeon on a Friday night ><

3. "O.k you're going to feel a bit sleepy soon"

"how long will it take for me to feel...woooooo zzzzzzz"

4. Morphine is my friend ^^

5. I shiver frantically for an hr after surgery.

6. I realised why they ask so many questions before surgery.

7. Anestesia is not my friend ><

8. Learnt how it really feels to actually really throw up water xD

9. The gown they give you is actually quite comfy.

10. Drip = Bessie <3

11. 2 injections + 1 arm = MASSIVE YELLOW,GREEN & RED BRUISE ><

12. Pissing the food that Bessie gave me gives a smooth feeling.

13. We really use our abs more than we think.

14. I do not sleep well unless I'm on my side.

15. If you don't eat and keep your food, the hospital will not discharge you 0.o

16. My friends have officially seen me at my worst.

17. When something internally touches your abdominal area, your intestine's shut down.

18. They encourage you to fart after surgery xD

19. When you look dead and beaten up, your baby cousin will be scared of you ><

20. All that pain for a 5CM appendix ><

oh and...when they see free fluid running aorund in you abdomen...your screwed xD

Signing off with surgical cuddles and blessings!

Yellow flowers and Blue rainbows

2009-06-17T11:28:00.003+02:00

I'm sitting here,crouched.
NO! what did we say...postive things only...dont mention your pain ><
Fineeee, so..im sitting here, listening to disney songs and realising that i have asolutely nothing to do.
What did i just say?
Meh...
I have decided to try get my positiveness back and be me again...im finding it kinda hard cos im used to d negativity..and feelign sorry for myself. *and zip-a-dee-doo-dah just came on xD*
But like I've realised that the more negative you are about the negative things going on in your life the worse your gonna make it you no?

-ve + -ve = double -vitiy

+ve + -ve= neautral action

so in actual fact its always better to try make soemthign positive even if you feel its impossible.
Now I started reading a book Steve gave me its bout positive thinking and I know that will get me back on track =) and look I'm already getting there..
I really wanna genuinely thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for keeping me in your prayers and wishing me better and coming to visit me and sending me sms or fb messages or phoning...anything and everything helped so much =) I am honestly truly grateful for my friends..and I must admit that even though my whole bday was a fiasco....my friends still managed to make it special and i am eternally grateful for ALL OF YOU!

Next blog will be all about my freaky experience in a hospital...i might just vlog it =P XD
IF..your lucky ;)

Signing out with massive individual cuddles, blessings and smushes! <3

Shrug

2009-06-10T22:25:00.002+02:00

No..I don't need special hugs. Tbh I don't really want hugs at all at the moment.
Wow, my Blog has completely turned pessimistic.
Hmph.. I think I've lost Kai.
Incedible, how since my Bday nothings really gone my way.
Bleh..is the word I'd use to describe how I feel atm.
Interesting, is what you feel when you realise that you've put on a mask.
Sigh..there isn't much to undersatnd here.
Happiness, hasn't been in my vocab for a while now.
Sadness..has.

I don't really know what's wrong tbh I'm still trying to figure it out..

But till then...

I'm out

i mean SERIOUSLY?!? can my bday GET any worse?!

2009-05-31T14:46:00.002+02:00

bleh..this is a rant so if your not in the mood of hearing me being emo then im warning u to just shut the window from now >< ok so I knew my bday wasnt gonna be anything special but i didnt think it was gonna be BAD! so..lets start shall we?
Sunday Lunch
my mum being d sweetherat that she is tried to organise something for my bday with the family and stuff but no1 could come..so we sed uwijja well just go c my nanna instead and well get some sushi take away..wat happens? the sushi place doesnt open for sunday lucnh..so we sed ok lets try chinese..same thing...so we ended up with a pizza..ok np..until the pizza isnt rlly gud and its given me a bloody tummy ache >< so im not gonna enjoy any cake for the rest of the day

Let's Talk about Cake
So my mum wanted to make me a prety cake...once she starts making it the mixer explodes so ye...store bought cake it is >< i mean come on..do u believe it?! XD

Saturday Before
This was the day wen everyone was telling my mum that they couldnt come for sunday lunch so my moral was already low. once the evening came along I had my uncle's retirement party so i knew i wouldnt be going out so i sed ok..lets just dress up and hv some free alcohol. At the party my mum tells me i can leave a bit to go c my friends..ok sounds gud..enjoy some of my bday weekend with my friends...that should be gud right?! WRONG! i hardly even spoke to some of my friends..some ppl just pissed me off so much that i just left. So i went off with Matt...what happens? i get the most crushing news in the world..so ye my night is fucked..cant be salvagged.

Friday Night
so the plan is to go out with my friends and have a night out...but wats this?! whats been invented..SAC FEST! perfect..all my friends are there and im stuck at home alone..ye perfect..atleast Hillary came for an hour and we talked..i admit..that was nice :) - 1 good thing *woot*

Future?
So tom. the actual day which is suppost to be all perfect...i hv to spend my day in my room studying pure maths for my exam the next day. But wait! thats not the only part of it! I cant even celebrate my bday next weekend...do u know y?
Beer olympics on friday..also..youthful worship..and of course Sat and Sunday i hv two whole days of work...so yes ofcourse..i hv so much time to actually meet with my friends and get a little extra love...IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!?!

-.-'
Conclusions..
So besides all this i find out one of my relatives might not make it to next week.
They found cancer in 2 of my friends relatives.
I lost some1 i really love.
MY cousin went missing this morning.
My wellies arent coming for yet another month ><
I have so much to think about that i cant even study anymore so im gonna fail!
Oh ye..and i cant take the course i want cos of the screwed up maltese system..so yes..no future now either?!
pls note there is more..but cant be mentioned cos its personal..

ye...im not signing out with any cuddles or blessings...just a quick note...do NOT mention anything to me this week unless its positive..i dont want to hear it..i cant take it anymore!
I DONT WANT ANY HAPPY BDAYS COS IT SURE AS HELL AINT HAPPY ><

Tempting?

2009-05-19T23:38:00.003+02:00

As everyone seems to be oging insane...I think its the best time to take advantage of this situation...and...post this o=) ...you know you want to =P

Today Ive written 3 letters
And i think that's the only thing that matters.
Ive got knowledge coming out of my ears
But i think i'd like to stick it up some1's rear.
Im feeling sick and tired
and i've officially decided that its time to be retired.

Bubblesticks and candyfloss,
Angels wings are never a loss.
Yellow doves and Blue shot glasses
Are things that should not go up ur asses.

John mayer is taking his toll on me
And im very worried that im gonna get stung by a bee.
Im in dire need of some awesome wellies
but all i keep seeing are my teachers bellies ><
Cutting my hair this weekend
Not sure on were to let the length end.

Bubblesticks and candyfloss,
Angels wings are never a loss.
Yellow doves and Blue shot glasses
Are things that should not go up ur asses

I think its time to say goodbye.
But my skirt is stuck and i can't unzip my fly ><
So i'll wave and sign off.
Another awesome update? *cough*
I Think my creative side is getting the better of me.
It's definately time to hv some tea!

Signing off with Poetic blessings and cuddles xxx

Schiz-ish?

2009-05-17T21:40:00.004+02:00

ok so yes...i'm dying from all these studies!

But Kai there rlly isn't all that much, you just have to actually study and not do other things.
THERE IS ALOT OK?!?! we're talking A-LEVEL here! xP

Fine. OK. Whatever you say...but seriously...this isn't what we want to blog about is it?

No -.-' i dont think so...

Good girl =) now...

WAIT!

What >< ?

I want my new yellow hoodie first o=)

Fine! Come on, hurry it up

OK I'm done^^

*sigh* As I was saying, stress...exa-

BLEHH! BORING!

Do you mind!?!? I'm trying to Blog here?!?

But ranting about these things isn't entertaining. Can we talk about something else like...i dont know...missing Krissie...or buying those gorgeous yellow wellies?!?!

We are trying to express our feelings here not update the readers, it my time to rant. Let me!

NO! I have as much say in this as you do and I think we should talk about how awesome Y4J was last night ^^ or how hilarious the Eurovision was XD

Stop it! I know what you're doing! I'm the smart one here! ACCESS DENIED!

I'm merely stating that I think that the dress I bought yest. for the wedding is completely gorgeous that's all...I didn't mean anythign by it i promise...i want olives =(

IIII am merely stating that YOU are a peasant. Now shut up! As I was trying to say before I was RUDELY interupted, exams start in 8 days but it's not really the point.

Then get to the point! ma! you take forever to say something!

*rolls eyes* Exams aren't really the main thing that are stressing me out at the moment.

Is it the fact that you start work at Hilton the day after you finish exams?

NO!

Or is because your family is driving you insane?

Well kinda..but no!

Is it cos you've been with Matt for 5months and your still not sick of him?

Goh! No!

UH! It's cos you're Ipod imploded isn't it?

STOP IT!

Really? not that? How about the fact that you started private lesson last week and you were 30mins late to your first lesson and you gave off a horrible impression?

WILL YOU PLEASE LET ME TALK?!

No =) not until I hit the spot..now, is it because you finally realised what Jesus wants you to do and it's kinda freaking you out?

Yes! Now let me explain.

OK I'll shut up now. But I must say the blue and yellow make the blog look green =(

You are so trying my patience here! So, yes...erm...basically what she said but I'd like to add a "please pray for me" and a "if you feel God telling you ANYTHING that concerns me, I want to know, even if its insane ok?"

OK ^^

NOT YOU!

Sorry =(

*rolls eyes*

Are we done yet?

Yes =) Anythign you want to add before we sign out?

Ermmm...*looks around the room* I want yellow shoes? o=)

*shakes head in disapproval* OK so we're signing off wit-

WAIT!

AHHHHHH! WHAT?!?!

I wanna say it =(

FINE! BABY XP

Signing off with blue and yellow cuddles! xxxx

P.S THAT's how you update a Blog =] XD

Scared?

2009-04-13T15:57:00.003+02:00

hey guys
so basically...having had my life shaken yest. ive gained a kinda "new perspective" on things. but anyhu...
ok so yest. my doctor told me the strangest things...one of the things he sed is wat ill be focusing on today. He told me that my mind i naturally worrying about something but my reasoning [being so relaxed] isn't letting it. And this litle scenario is causing conflict in my brain and giving me loads of headaches and a rlly bad time.
So basically my head is gonna remain being weird till my mind and reason come to an agreement and settle their little fight. Thing is, it's either gonna end in my finally figuring out what is worrying me so much or d opposite, being immune to my worries.
Yes, this is probably rlly confusing but w/e it is im scared.
Im scared of never finding out wat im worrying bout.
Im scared cos i dont want to be immune to worries.
Im scared that this conflict will never leave and just get worse.
Im scared to no wat im worrying about.
Im scared that watever is in my mind is gonna effect me badly.
Im scared to worry about anything cos it will only make things worse.
Im scared that there is nothing to worry about and its all in mind.
But most of alll im scared cos....

Im scared.

Prayers r asked for pls

Updates

2009-04-06T21:17:00.002+02:00

ok so ive decided to give u all an update cos i no ur all so interested in my life =) XD and i wanted u to all notice my new sexy template xD
ok so these r things ive discovered about myself and ive adapted to my life..here we go...
*look out for confusion*

reading is fun =o!
it's ok to wear more than 3 colours xD
if u don't like what i say, wear or do...don't complain..just walk away =P
pv= OVER RATED!
which group do i belong to? XD
yellow <3
short hair :'(
financialness = MINUS!
DANCE!! =D
having a big social life does not leave enough time for nerdifying be4 exams!
y4j + community= confusion XD
skirts n legging r d best thing to wear during worship =)
its ok to remain in a relationship beyond 4mnths xD
it seems achie is never going to get out of my life!
yellow ford ka, where art thou?!?!
SUN <3
most of d blogs i want to write end up on d Y4J blog xD
need to start carring a dictionary with me
havent done anything on my to-do list for 2009!!?!
i want my 4th driving lesson pls!!

ok so thats it...sry for confusing u xD

Signing out with 20 updated cuddles and blessings! xxx

The Bell...

2009-03-22T23:08:00.002+01:00

ok guys...since u were all mushed out by my last one..i hv to redeem myself...even though ppl did like it :P and some of u just dont no how to do anything but moan xP...since exams are round d corner...i decided to put this one in...wrote it after my physics o-level..enjoy...

The Bell

The tension in the room was high and could even be felt by the only person there that didn’t need to be tense. She was talking softly and clearly - making sure she was being heard well so no one could get her into trouble. She clearly stated the instructions as a roar of sound went over the room as each girl put her bag on her lap, opened it and got her stationary and bottle out. They all switched off their mobiles.
Each desk looked cloned. A girl sitting behind the desk with a bottle on the right end corner with two biros next to it.Two sharpened pencils near the biros.
A pencil.
A rubber.
A long ruler.
A short ruler.
And either one or two calculators stacked on each other.

To the left was the white paper indicating her index number as well as her ID card ontop.
She looked at the girls making sure there weren’t any bags opened or any pencil boxes on the desks. She then switched on the fans and asked them if everything was fine. She held the stack of papers up, which were lying on her desk, and started informing the girls that it was ceiled. She then opened it in front of them. All eyes were on the papers, everyone wondering what they had written on them. She held them and put her back on the wall and waited…
The bell went.

It meant that every classroom in that building at that point had a person running around handing the papers out to each and every girl there. Without that bell the exam wouldn’t have commenced. If the bell rang late, the exam would start late. If it rang early, the exam would have finished early. Their time all depended on the efficiency of that bell. Most wondered…wouldn’t it have been better if the bell never went?
The last paper in her hand was down. The woman looked at one of the girls as she didn’t move and devour her paper to start working it. She thought this was weird but went back to her desk to start taking attendance and going round the room to check the ID cards and index numbers.

The girl looked down at her paper, looked out of the window and placed her hands on the paper. She said a little prayer and opened the front page of the examination leaflet. The pictures indicated the things she knew as well as those she didn’t know. She realized that whatever it was she had to answer everything…even if she didn’t know it. Everything she learnt and studied in those three years had to go down on that paper.
She slowly started working, skipping questions she couldn’t understand as well as re-reading questions to make sure she was answering properly. Re-checking calculations as well as her grammar. She went through each question, page, slowly and carefully. She took small breaks to stretch her arms and legs and take a sip of her drink to keep her energy level up. She’d look up in front of her to the blank blue wall and remind herself that she had to finish the paper.
She looked at her watch and calculated the amount of time she had left and checked if she was in time. She realized she was a bit late and went into slight panic but still, she looked at the paper and continued working it out. An hour and a half passed and she was going back to the beginning of the paper to start answering those hard questions that she couldn’t answer in the beginning. She could tell it was just stress as she now found those questions much easier as she read through them more and more.
“5minutes left”, said the woman as she was receiving one of the exam papers from a girl leaving. The girl went into a slightly higher panic but tried remaining calm as she started going over her paper, making sure she didn’t leave anything out. She read over each question and re-read her answers.
The bell rang…it was over…her last chance to try prove herself in that paper was gone as the invigilator said, “Pens down.” All because of the bell…

Signing out with Grade 3 cuddles and blessings xxx

This post is not as long as it looks! XD

2009-03-19T21:41:00.004+01:00

Wow....i havent been on this thing is so long that I actually forgot my password for a few minutes xD but anyhu...i was organising my files on my comp..yes...that bored...and I found the beginning of one of the chapters of the book I was writing...and since I've decided to stop writing it [for personal reasons] I thought I'd i post some of it here.
Basically...remember when I asked all of you to write down what your dream date would be? well basically this is what I used some of them for...
Pls note...that it's not like some amazing thing....its just a piece of a really gossipy book xD plus I started writing this over a yr ago and this it take from the end of chapter 5....i would put all chapter 5 in but its 13pgs long and it will confuse u cos u dont no d whole beginning...so this is it...

Chapter 5 - Time

This dance went on and on for some time, Rachel wanted Kyle to step up and ask her out but he never got down to doing it. She thought it was because he was scared but in fact Kyle was just waiting for the opportune moment. He really liked her and wanted it to be special. He wanted Rachel to be different to all his other girlfriends so he decided to ask her out in a special way.
The plan was for him to pick her up in his car (he had to include it, he had just started driving) so that they can go meet their friends at their normal café to celebrate Christmas eve together as they normally did. But what was really going to happen was that he was going to ‘accidentally’ miss the road and keep on driving to the beach and take her for a walk. At the beach they would find a few blankets and a thermos with hot chocolate and he’d explain how he wanted to spend the night as just them.

* * *

Christmas Eve finally came around and Kyle picked up Rachel as planned. He was so nervous, he was normally never nervous when asking out a girl but it was different this time. As he was driving, he remained silent as Rachel was doing all the talking. He just kept nodding and in his mind he kept thinking how beautiful she looked. At one point she realized that he missed the turning to the street were the café was.
“Kyle…Kyle snap out of it you just missed the turning for the café’”
He remained stiff and suddenly pulled the breaks and turned the car around. After the noise died down from all the hooting of cars, Rachel looked at Kyle with disappointment.
“What?”
“Well, if you’re going to drive, then concentrate! You could have killed us! You’re so in the moon sometimes, you know that don’t you?”
“Sorry, I’m not myself today. Don’t worry, it won’t happen again. I promise”
For all time they spent at the café Kyle was silent and all that kept running through his mind was;
Why did I get cold feet?

I ruined everything.

I’m such an idiot.

I’m never going to get the chance again.
On the other side, Rachel had really enjoyed herself but she was worried about Kyle because he wasn’t being himself. On the ride home Kyle was extremely snappy, not in a good mood at all. Rachel just couldn’t understand what was wrong with him. When they came to her house Kyle didn’t switch off the engine so they could spend sometime talking. Rachel just thanked him and left the car. She heard the screeching of the brakes behind her as Kyle’s car rushed off.
She just didn’t know what to do about him. She prayed for around an hour in her room and then decided to put on her robe and start getting ready for bed. She looked out of her window as she thought she heard a car pull up. She couldn’t tell whose car it was because it was raining. Surely enough, less than a minute later, she heard her mobile ring. It was Kyle.
Kyle was outside her door with his mobile in his hand in hopes that she would answer and he would get a second chance to ask her out. She wasn’t answering her mobile and Kyle was thinking about leaving and forgetting the whole thing. But then he heard her door unlocking. When she looked up to see if it was really him she was terribly confused. She saw Kyle drench on her porch with a thermos in his hand. She came out of the house hesitantly to see Kyle’s worried face turn into a smile.

“Can’t believe you still look as pretty as you did this evening, in your robe.”
“Cut the flirting, you mind telling me what on earth happened and what you're doing here?”
Kyle took a long deep breathe and smoke came out of his mouth through the coldness of the air.
“Ok, so the thing is, I prepared the perfect evening just for the two of us. Instead of the café we were suppose to end up on the beach and we’d walk and have a nice chat and at the end of the beach we’d find a blanket with some candles and some hot chocolate in a thermos and at the opportune moment I’d ask you out. But being the idiot that I am, I got cold feet and ruined everything and I came to apologize and I’m wet because after I dropped you off I went to the beach to get my stuff but the only thing I found was this empty thermos.”
“Well at least it still went to good use,” Rachel said as she giggled.
“Very good use, because I also found a used condom...Anyway, as I was walking back it started to pour and I ran to the car but I still got soaked and I decided to come here to ask you out properly. So, Rachel…”
Rachel started moving closer to him, “Will…” and closer, ”you go-“ she put her finger on his mouth to indicate that she wanted him to stop talking. She looked up into those eyes that she loved so much and whispered,
“Yes”
She then leant in for a kiss which Kyle gladly accepted though he was surprised so he took a while to ease himself into the kiss and close his eyes but when he did he just wrapped his arms around her and jumped for joy inside.

Google searches!!

2009-02-02T22:03:00.002+01:00

ok so i decided to get down to this googley thing xD...im uber busy today but like...in a mood of working so here it goes!

Karla needs medication. [dont u dare laugh xP]
Karla looks like barbie. [other karlas r sexy too...how awesome :P]
Karla says, "Ooooh, pretty!" [omc so me xD]
Karla wants to getcha some lovin' [believe me, that was 1 of d least rude xD...go check 4urself]
Karla does some floor excersizes. [there is a karla on d show hi-5 XD]
Karla hates cameras. [i find that so contradictory to me]
Karla asks Gravitation what he wants to do with their planet. [ok..all karlas r weird]
Karla likes to sleep in d nude. [hilarious XD]
Karla eats a little crow. [disturbin yet found another google meme hu did this 1]
Karla wears super tight shorts! [found a porn star named karla spice xD]
Karla was arrested the same day. [no idea y]
Karla loves you. [honestly i found one that says that xD]

DOING KAI TOO! XD

Kai needs help [wat is it with d needs 1s xD :S?]
Kai looks like she belongs in Cuba sipping a Mojito! [i hate mojitos XD note another female kai]
Kai says goodbye. [=(]
Kai wants a popsickle! [youtube vid of a little baby so cute!]
Kai does he love you? [hmmm...i dunno xD]
Kai hates pretentious people who use big words like Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious [ftw!!! XD i love that word but hate big words xD]
Kai asks, cockily. "Besides, why would she want a fish like you snogging her?" [love it!! XD so it seems kai is a unisex same xD!]
Kai likes ballons [^^ yey]
Kai eats Valentine cupcake. [i want one!]
Kai wears pretty much anything. [cant say d same for me rlly]
Kai loves me. [i found a you aswell but decided to go for d me one]

I Tag :

Amy
Rache
Bob

Signing out with google search blessings and cuddles! xxxx

Charlie!

2009-01-03T11:35:00.002+01:00

XD im soooo sry guys but i just had to put it up! its d sequel and it deserves to be on my blog just as much as d first one did...presenting...Charlie The Unicorn 2! =D...go on u no u want to watch it =P

Signing off with unicorn cuddles and blessings!!

Have You Ever?

2008-12-09T23:06:00.002+01:00

Hello my lovely readers...
ok so yes...i blogged twice in a week =o! yes im starting to blog more =D so yey but i got no time for vlogs cos my windows movie maker is being rlly slow and wont let me edit =/ but anyhu...no this blog isnt about the game "have u ever..." its actaully a response to amy's blog "A Ramble...?"
basically ive been reflecting alot on d things i wanna change and i was reading amy's blog and some of the qs rlly struck me...

ever felt that you wanted to be normal? and not reach some high standards that everyone expects you to?
ever wanted to be just you, no questions asked?
ever felt that time was flying by too fast...that days were going by without you knowing what was said?

ok so basically ive been rlly thinking bout these things how like time is rlly passing quickly! how like i cant even remember the Y4J live-in and it was only 2mnths ago and it rlly seems far away but wen i look at it in school time it feels like nothing...i mean i still feel like i just started school and that we r stil in d beginning chapters of the sylabii but in actual fact the 1st term is almost over and christmas is literally round the corner!!! i think i need to take things slower ppl...cos im being too fast..i need to calm down and reflect on my days rather then counting down the end of term...hu agrees :P XD?
ok also...qs 1 rllllly struck me cos like i realised that some ppl expect us to be like these rlly holy ppl and if not all holy atleast like hv these rlly high standards and stuff..and ok its d right thing to do...im gonna start confusing u here...but tbh i dont think we can just be wat ppl want us to be...it has to come from us....let me give an example...
peppina is a christian with a drinking problem...u cant just tell peppina stop drinking cos thats not wat jesus thought us..ok u can tell her but i doubt shell listen...u hv to help her cut down and to do it in prayer and if peppina's prayer life isnt rlly grand its gonna be harder for her to stop cos she's not rlly relying on God is she?
whilst giving another example....
if roberto prays constantly and is at a constant with God than its less likely for him to end up with a drinking problem like peppina did
speaking for myself...i believe my standards reflect my relationship with God...i tend not to show my standards but yet conscience that im keeping them...so dont judge me...im a person u cant judge by cover xP
so yes i believe...that wat we do is all a reflection of our prayer life...now i might sound like hypocrite but yes i no i am...we all are....no1 keeps to everything they say...u r a hypocrite as much as i am(i might be more of one thou) xD im sry..if u dont like it-dont read anymore :P
so going on to amy's 2nd qs...i believe that u should always be yourself...and dont be wat others try tell u is right...be urself and if you dont like that...then start listening to wat ppl say is right...and pray...prayer=relationship with God=defines your christian character =)
Thats me for the day!

Signing out with everlasting cuddles and blessings! xxx

Extreme Make Over 2

2008-12-03T20:01:00.003+01:00

Ello loved ones!
ok so lets get down to it shall we =P till now d decision is that im most probably not going abroad this summer cos d prices of d dance trip went up so ive decided that God just rlly doesnt want me to do it this yr for sure...so ye that scrapped...so im buying a gud fon ^^ which makes me a happy panda and ill be actually getting christmas prezzies this yr and not jsut money to save up..cos like for d last yr ive saved everything to go up to ss or outreach..etc..so like this yr im taking a yr off and jsut staying in sunny malta and saving up some money but livign life with d rest and not jsut saving everythin..decided i need a break =)
Other news...ive decided this is new yr is gonna be a yr of change..halli my changes started yset but still....2009 is gonna be my random yr were if i wanna do something im jsut gonna up and do it...being a silly teen ftw ^^ dw..im meanign gud thigns...like crazy hairstyles and piercings and like things God asks me to do lfet right n centre...this yr kai is gonna be a fool..any1 wants to join :P?
this leads ur to our lovely topic...my hair...i changed my hair yest...ill put a pic up at the end..tis very sexy and grand =D it was kinda random...ive wanted to do it for a long time but never got down to do it and one day i jsut sed "wat d hay..im single...i dont care about my appearance atm..lets go for it" and wat do u no? it turned out quite gorgeous ^^ so yey =D
also...i went bk to st.mikes...was rlly fun and hilarious..i had a marriage concelling session with karl and ms.C...and wat struck me is my teachers told me ive become quiet =S it seems ive become more concervative and im not sure i liked wat i haerd =/ so ye im debating and wracking my brain on that statement a bit now =)
other than that i think things r fine...all my other appliances are working...my healthy-ish xD and my grades r fine...execpt pure maths..but thats cos my teacher is a joke and im soon starting pl so ill be fine =) but i think thats it!

yes that is blue ur seeing in my hair :P

Signing off with blue cuddles and blessings! xxx

Falling on dark times...

2008-11-08T13:21:00.002+01:00

Ello loved ones...
well its me again..not so famous today tbh...yest was a gr8 day but turned out to be utterly horrible
Thing is (ok im gonna just vent out and put myself out there) i hv work right? its from 6-10 on fridays to sundays...and i dont mind it like..but d problem is after that i wanna go out..u no a whole week of work and no fun isnt gud for u so i wanna just relax a bit...so i end up out at 10.30/11 and i hv tp be home by 12 which is kinda stressful cos it means i just get an hr...and my mum gets all pissy cos she has to come for me late and shit so that doesnt help...but of course d tip of d ice burg yest. was that my buttons on my fon broke...and as some of u no...im saving up..i need 1000euros by d time july comes along cos i wanna go to a dance school abroad for a bit and im already tight in getting d money as it is...so like having to buy a new mobile is gonna make it worse..but atleast...tnx to paula..she is letting me borrow her old one till christmas so atleast ill get a mobile for christmas...but its still pissing off u no wat i mean?
also some other things happened but i dont wanna rlly talk bout that...and im also missing d fact that im not at d live-in of d youths this weekend =/...i missing u guys alot ok? dont forget bout me!!! i still love u all very much and ur still family to me...its jsut like i went abroad now or something
anyhu...welll i think thats my blabbing done...hope u ppl r all ok!!

Signing out with loving but emo blessings and cuddles xxx

10 Things I Hate About You

2008-10-19T20:11:00.002+02:00

Ello ello ello
welll nothing going on rlly in my life atm....lots of time to think though. Loving JC its like im on a learning holiday xD d only think i hate r d stairs cos i hv to stay going from d basement to d 4th floor and by d second floor i get tired xD my fav. classes are language of philosophy simply cos he lets me take my coffee during d lesson <3 color="#ff0000">logic of philosophy cos its so much fun to work d stuff out xD but anyhu...d purpose of d blog today is cos ive been reflecting on little things ive found out bout myself over d yrs...i came up with 40 constant things that are part of me and how i react to things or wat i like or dont...bla bla bla but im only gonna write 10 cos it reminded me of d film "10 thing i hate bout u" which ive loved since it came out (in 1999) and it was my first to many heath ledger films that i grew to love xD but anyhu...some might no all these points and to others it might be new...so lets get to no kai XD and if u like them i might add some more later xD... *drum role*

I love dancing ---if u dont no that boy u rlly dont no me xD
I constantly change my mind
I trust a lot of ppl with small secrets yet only 1 or 2 with big secrets (if 1 or 2)
I dislike show offs and ppl hu over exacerate/ dramatise things
When I write I always try to put a bit of truth from my life into the story
I'm scared of the dark, bees & cats, yet i love kitten but i wont bring any of them close to my face
I don't really wear make-up, its more like if i feel like ill wear
I hate it when ppl mess up my hair when its up...when its down i dont mind but if its pulled back it honestly frustrates me
I'm alergic to tuna and skimmed milk xD
I constantly look at them time --cant stay without knowing d time

So there u hv it 10 random things bout me xD hate them or love them-there is more were that came from, but anyhu i leave u now with my motto ;

"never regret anything cos everything happens for a reason =)"

Signing out with 10 cuddles and 10 blessings xxx

A Fresh Term

2008-09-28T23:06:00.010+02:00

Hello children! as Dez would put it =P hehe *shout out to Dez all d way in spain* hehe

ok so....i hv a reason for not writing in my blog and d reason is i dont like my blog its being mean to me =( some how my settings changed and i cant fix it!...all my link are at d bottom and d only thing that shows ontop r my vlogs and my posts...i just want my side links bk on my side but my blog wont let me :'( help me fix it!!! PLS!

tears aside....I PASSED MALTESE! im very happy bout that and because i passed maltese im off to JC hands-down no-qs-asked xD i dunno if id say im rlly excited bout it cos i dont rlly think i am =/ i hv a phobia of new ppl XD unless ive heard all bout a new person im most likely to be extremely quite around them and i dont like being quiet especially at school..im d type of student in ur class hu asks all d stupid qs and makes every1 go "oh come on!" XD yes thats me *glee* anyhu...im also not excited cos i hv to start busing it to school =( which is not fun at all....especially since d bus schedule sucks....to be on time for a lecture at 9 i hv to catch d bus at 8 =/ d times are ridiculous so yes...any offers :P XD?!!? i no most my blog viewers hv cars now so ha! *guilt trip flying ur way* =p especially u UNI ppl :P XD another reason i dont wanna start school is d obvious..i dont wanna work or study bla bla bla but to be totally honest im just a tad--ok maybe a bit more than a tad- bit scared of d lifestyle at JC..its not gonna be easy and its gonna kinda suck but hopefully ill get stronger through it =D (with d aid of my friends prayers for me o=)) teehee

anyhu...ive also decided that i MUST do a yr studying abroad...prefarably anywere on d british isle xD so if any1 has heard of anything pls tell me =D

on to sicker news....im sick yet again...horrible cold =(...and its pissing me off cos im never fully not sick and its bloody annoying! this summer has been hilarious concerning my health...in d matter of 3 mnths my health insurance has bounced and they refuse to pay anything that concerns my sicknesses xD cos im always sick and making them lose lots of moneys xD which i find hilarious but insomma...other than sicknesses i must say this happened to be an awesome summer...last summer rocked too and i havent decided which one is better tbh cos i had an o-level summer last yr too (well u can put it that way) cos i spent from june-august always hanging out with d ppl hu had finished their o's so like i got a taste of their full time summer and it was awesome =D but anyhu..i keep rambling...i shouldnt xD

so..ill be off now =)..im gonna put in some fotos of dr.john's bday...OH! btw i started writing a song..and for d first time EVER im making my own tune to it-not getting some instrument-playing person to make d tune..infact im making d tune off of my bass =D im actually getting a bit better at bass which is gud =) considering im teaching myself xD but anyway..im off!

signing out with end of summer cuddles and blessings! xxx

1yr anniversary

2008-09-02T14:38:00.003+02:00

hey guys! well..i missed my 1 yr anniversary with my blog by 3days XD *woopsy* just wantewd to make a quick update....im studying like mad atm cos tom i hv my malt. resit...PRAYERS R GREATLY APPRECIATED!! and i still dont belong to a school yet xD...JC r waiting for me to pass maltese and im on d waiting list for DLS...they hv to fon on thurs..if not..its JC..or well..naxxar if i dont get my maltese...which i think ill get..i got my revision of paper today...they rlly praised my writing but they didnt change my mark :/ cos they r silly XD..apparently my literature was d problem...hence ive been studying loads...err...Y4J live-in coming up in beg. oct....got a new email addy...its taken from Job 5:7 if u were wondering *Achie<3* im making an ss video but its taking abit long..still hv to put up my pics XD *facebook<3* oh and btw i was thinking...cos like i decided to read d bible from Genesis to Revelation and like im getting abda qs cos im not understand certain things...wat dop u think if i post my qs here and u ans them for me :P...im not getting many comments so i dont actually no hu is reading my blog..hence im asking d little viewers that i hv be4 actually doing it so....comment and tell me watch think :)..btw tnx sara for d notes..ur an angel :) GBU!

Signing out with 1yr cuddles and blessings! xxx

Weekend Streaks...

2008-08-01T12:24:00.004+02:00

hello my people!

ok well..i havent blogged in a while but like ive hardly been on d comp as it is...u might think im lying but like even wen im online im hardly ever actually at d comp XD but anyhu....i just wanted to blog about d amazing weekend i had last week =) i was told to blog it not vlog it due to d fact that i havent blogged in a long time hehe..
so here it goes

well it actually started fromt Thurs...due to d fact that i dont hv school/work/anything imp...my weekend like...never ends..except on monday and thurs morning xD--its d only time im actually doing something that i dont wanna do but anyway...so last thurs d community ppl came bk from d famous outreach xD yes i didnt go but im ok with it cos i learnt alot while staying here hehe but anyway..i decided to go to community that night cos i wanted to hear bout all d experiences and stuff =) and it was kick ass and after we went to mc d's (as per usual) were i got to indulge in a doughnut *yum* ^^ and it was tres fun cos i hadnt been to mc d's in quite a while...
On Friday...i decided to go with d community ppl to watch...*drum-role* Wall-E ....d most adorablestestest film in d world!!! go watch it! SO CUTE!..i had seen part of it on d comp but it brings out more cuteness at d cinema xD and and..then we all went to d Mustard Seed...cos im cool like that o=) and after i went with Rache and Achie and Debz to Rache's house..were Bob joined us and we went out again to meet d community ppl once again xD due to our boringness of staying home...well we go home at around 3.30 after that xD and ell...we went to sleep at around...5 xD weeeeeeeeeee

Saturday morning..i was woken up by a very inconsiderate Achie who jumped on me while Rache put her alarm near my ear so i'd hear that blessed noise and wake up xD but anyhu....i stayed a bit on d comp then while Debz went out with her family and Achie and Rache stayed making sandwiches and at 12 some friends came over so we'd watch d EXTENDED version of Lords of The Rings..the 3rd one xD which was hilarious and we ordered from pizza hut and Achie and Rache got offended cos no1 wanted their sandwiches...but anyhu... at around 6 i walked home trying to c how im gonna get to youth mass and beer fest at d same time xD and luckily for me i have friends with cars =D and i gots a lift with matt *tnx* and i gots to go to youh mass and beer fest and spent another amazing night with d community ppls =D teehee...

On Sunday morning..woke up at 8 to be at Valletta at 9..to meet my oh so lovable friend Cettina!! =D and we ventured to Tarxien to paint some walls at her Aunts orphanage place hehe and it was very enjoyable =D *tnx Cett* i then began my journey to Valletta and then to San Gwann at around...2 XD and then i came home..did my hw and it was off to my aunt's to c my family cos i hadn't seen them in a rlly long time =/ and wats funny was i hadn't seen my baby cuz in 3 months and i thought she forgot me but she didnt and she gave me a hug and a kiss and stayed loving me =D and as usual..she cried at d glimpse of my brother xD i find it so hilarious xD but anyhu..then me n mig drove off to Wardija to go to Anna's house were Steve n his family are living atm and we had a nice long swim there and i spent yet another evening with d community ppl =D and if i hadnt had pl on monday morning i would hv had an amazing monday too with y4j and buon cafe after xD never been done be4 lol but anyhu..i wrote too much so im off now cos Rache came xD she says hi...<3>

Signing off with cool blessings and cuddles! xxx

Should I be saying sry?

2008-07-16T14:16:00.003+02:00

hey guys..long time no blog xD
well...last update on outreach...tom is outreach xD and im still not allowed to go..seems like this wasd just a lesson in humility but im not giving up till 10 am tom xD but anyhu...i got my results and from the looks of it im off to de la salle if im lucky but if im not its JC xD not gonna bother for SAC cos they dont hv the subjects i want...oh and btw...if uve taken chem A-level or maths or both together...pls leave me a comment on how u found them cos like i want to c if im making the right choice hehe
On a less schoolish note...social season finished last week hehe and i must say i enjoyed mine mostly..obviously..cos like it was mine xD and open bar and cool hehe so yes...now some time this wek im gonna try make a vlog full of stuff that went on between end june beginning july cos im cool hehe *btw i still vlog..i just dont put them up herei leave them on my site...www.youtube.com/simplekai and i also vlog on www.youtube.com/theseven4seven*
anyway...ull be happy to no that ive finally calmed down xD for those of u hu know wat ive ben up to this summer will no that ive gone a little over d top and ive come bk down to earth and calmed down a bit hehe..it was needed as it was going way too far...probably most of u dont no wat im talking bout but still...smile and nod ppl SMILE-AND-NOD XD
well i think thats its for today..i cant promise u that ill be blogging more frequently but itll be on my msn wen i do! cos like i hv a resit cos i got a 6 and i needed a 5 (for 5 marks more i would hv made it) *tries not to swear* so ye im busy studying and going to pl again bla bla bla but insomma..im off
Signing out with 5 cuddles and 6 blessings! xxx

a week later...

2008-06-22T15:31:00.002+02:00

hey guys...a week has passed since my last outreach thing and i just wanted to update u xD...ok so if i want i hv d moeny for outreach...praise God d moeny has turned up but unfortunately i m still stuck in malta due to d fact that my parents concent is out d window atm and unless they let me i can forget outreach..so yes....God isnt making this any easier for me xD and i dont blame him hehe...taking a step in faith requires challenges...so yes...

prayers are requested :D hehe

on a easier note...social season has begun and i've attended my first social this yr..which was of st.aloy...brilliant i must say..and i must admit...y4j ppl r taking over every social this yr xD its hilarious...there r atleast 5 y4j ppl going to almost every social :D heeh cos we rock ^^ but that aside...i rlly enjoyed it :) so lets c if the other social will beat this one xD

weeeeeeee...

oh and also i finally no wat God wants me to do in life..its hard..and im keeping it to myself for now..but id like to be kept in ur prayers pls cos its quite hard for me to do hehe..ill leave u now :P

Signing off with hard cuddles and blessings xxxx

To Outreach or not to Outreach?

2008-06-14T10:53:00.003+02:00

That is the qs xD hehe
hi guys! sry i havent blogged in ages but im lazy so leave me alone xP so basically yest. i went to community right? and i rlly enjoyed myself but like wen John was saying like wats happening next week and he talked abuot rehersals i was like, "i should be there" and like its weird cos i always had it in mind to come to outreach but i never rlly concidered it cos of money issues...then mike started bugging me about it :P XD and like telling me to stop being negative..and then on d way home i saw this billboard saying, "expect the unexpected" xD so im like "ok God...its up to u-u want me to go..im having faith that u will provide" so ok guys..i need ur prayers! cos im thinking i hv to go xD and nothing will stop me cos im being positive :D hehe weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee so prayers! and any donations will be greatly appreciated but i doubt there will be XD but hey...cant a girl dream :P o=)
in other news...the 747 videos began last week...for any1 hu wishes to go c--www.youtube.com/theseven4seven and also im addicted to gossip girl XD im watching d last episode and next week i think ill either start lost or heros...not sure....any comments :P XD and summers gr8 btw for any of u hu r still studying :P HANG IN THERE XD ur in me prayers ;)
oh! and also...this week i was going through my sms' cos like i need to delete alot xD cos i hv absolutely no space and i was reading through d messages and there were some rlly sweet ones and i rlly wanna thank u all for u sms cos they r rlly swt :) and it reminded me of how gr8 my friends are =) and also i had some sms from troubled friends and stuff and i realised how things rlly hv changed and hekk it makes me think how God has such an effect on our lives...so take a minute to look bk on how God has rlly changed u just in this past yr :) *minute of thinking*
anyhu..im off hunnies xD
Signing out with Blessing blessings and cuddles xD xxxx

Addicted?

2008-05-27T19:16:00.004+02:00

Hello beautiful ppl!! :D

Im in a good mood ^^ XD weeeee...ok so..im sorry i haven't blogged or vlogged in a while but as u know i've had exams and stuff..but now i finish in 2days so i hv some time since d last 2weks were my most hectic..blehh xD but anyhu..onto my new addiction :O!!

Guys...im addicted to SHOPPING! XD ive gone shopping like 3 times in d last week xD seriously..and not any shopping...clothes and shoe shopping ^^ seriously..its a rlly gud stress reliever!! and rlly fun :) i bought loadsa stuff ^^ weeeeee hehe oh and i did my nails again..this week red n blk..rlly nice n classy xD and..hmmm...but can i tell u? i never liked shopping xD but i dont no wat happened! XD i mean seriously...i went 2yrs with d same clothes and id go shopping only cos i seriously didnt hv anything nice to wear anymore xD but now its like woooo...im loving it! XD im a bit mad ta...u can ask brooks or ach or zoe *fish* XD im going rlly mad...i think its cos im so excited that summer is here..like i fel like it already started xD weeeee...oh and and...cos my bday is on sunday im even more excited cos i get my ID weeee i think i dont rlly care about being 16 or getting prezzies or anything..i think my best present will be my ID xD no use in explaining y xD but stilll weeee..oh btw for u community ppl ill be seing u this week :D so yey hehe oh and happy bday to joe n maria angela and fran and steve! <3 color="#33ffff">brooks' mummy puit me in a good mood too xD :P *brooks* XD

ok now im off!

Signing out with shopping cuddles and blessings! xxxx

Sorry?

2008-05-14T18:12:00.003+02:00

Hello lovelies...ive only got 10mins left be4 i go bk to studying so idecided to blog! cos my last vlog sucked *didnt put it up* so ye..hmmm..i dont think many ppl read this anymore so like watever..im killing time co sim bored xD but for those of u hu do...no that im going a bit mental xD till now ive done 3 o-levels in 2 weeks and now starting from tom ill hv 8exams (4 o-levels) in a matter of 5days..but thats matsec for u i guess :S i went out during d week which made me ahppy this week ^^ XD it was fun :) hehe..it took off alot of stress..ppl do it! XD but anyhu...today i was watching grey's anatomy..im hooked on it atm...and like this song came up and im like..WOW its rlly old..i used to listen to it wen i was young and insomma i looked it up and i found out its of lifehouse (same band hu did "everything"-song ofr d mime i was in) so wat a coincidence is that!?!? XD but anyhu..ill put it up now cos its rlly nice...d words on d video r rlly swt but put more emphesis on d song..its rlly pretty ^^ i missed it and it rlly relaxes me :) oh and d spelling in d video is horrible xD and then they say im bad! pfft!..but anyhu..shouting out to brooks matt pawlu kikka joe mar fran sue benny cos bdays sake xD cant rem. anymore..but those i know had or r having their bdays in may :) so yes xD hehe
ok so ill leave u ^^ and im missing community atm :( and and....if u have godtv go watch it at 11pm (everyday) xD u wont regret it :)

Signing out with madening cuddles and blessings xxx

Away From the sun??

2008-04-28T20:37:00.002+02:00

Hey guys n girls...well i didn't feel like vlogging today so i've decided to write a blog :) hehe well its very Christiany i think :S hehe well...i was listenign to 3doors down a few days ago and i realised how like there lyrics are actually christian and its like...they were hurt by there community...and i was talking to my bro and he was like "i think they left their community or they were hurt by them" like it shows in some songs..but anyhu..i think one of their songs rlly applys to me atm and i dont want to put much detail into it..ill just drop off the lyrics and the vid..if i find one and like..u tell can do the maths i guess...

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

Oh no...
Yeah...
I'm gone...

[found a gud vid..says it all..kinda]

oh and say hello to d 747..im part of a channel..we repesent 7days of the week via d 7 colours of the rainbow ^^ hehe im friday--representing yellow ^^..we're starting it up in summer btw...

Signing out with the Son's cuddles and blessings xxx

The interview

2008-04-26T13:27:00.002+02:00

Hello my loved ones! well...i've decided that only special vlogs are gonna be posted on my blog hehe like this one :D its hilarious and u'll love it ^^ im gonna be blogging soon...just as this vlog dies down which is in around 3/4days...i wanna give a big thanks to my surpris guest ;) thank you so much! the idea was gr8! hehe and if any1 has any other fun ideas pls tell me :) and also if any1 had more qs...ill be happy to answer xD ;) I LOVE MY SPECIAL GUEST :D hehe MWA

Signing out with more vlogging cuddles and blessings xxx

K.A.I Vlogs!

2008-04-22T21:10:00.002+02:00

Hey ppl! decided i dont wanna stay uplaoding my vlogs here..so they r up on youtube on http://www.youtube.com/SimpleKai go enjoy :P and comment..n if ur not a you tube user u can always come bk here n comment here :P cos u love me n u want to do that :P XD

Signing off with K.A.I Vlogging blessings and cuddles xxx

2nd vlog^^

2008-04-19T11:09:00.001+02:00

Hey guys...second vlog up :) im loving vlogging its really fun! :D enjoy ^^

Signing out with 2nd vlogging cuddles and blessings xxx

My first Vlog!

2008-04-17T20:22:00.002+02:00

yey ok ppl i started vloggin :D hehe..hope u like it..its rlly fun xD n easier than blogs...but it takes d same amount of time XD so here it is...

Signing out with vlogging blessings and cuddles! xxx

Wat's up?

2008-04-14T13:44:00.005+02:00

Hello my children!!
Well ive decided to post today cos i just CANT study..ive tried 3 diff. subjects..my mind just WONT work today! n it needs a break jahasra..ive been working it everyday for a yr now xD so..i decided to check out how my studies are going instead..and well im almost done...and im rlly happy cos i feel quite prepared and like im on schedule..but i rlly need to focus more cos im forgeting alot :/ but anyhu...i finally finished school...i officially never hv to go to school again..though im going tom cos i need some help in a chapter of chemistry xD but anyhu..last few days were rlly fun and i got closer to more ppl..it was fun :) *more pics of end of school on my hi5/facebook but videos only on facebook*
Hmmm..wat else must i say? im dying to go out! hehe im only allowed out once a week now and its sooo not enough wen im being such a loner cos of studies n stuff :/..and im rlly going mental..but im happy its almost over 45days!! wooot!! thats a bit for me ok :P
In other news..ive decided that i want to become a teacher or a psycologist so im happy i hv a goal now :D hehe and btw! im job hunting atm! so if u no of any vacancies pls contact me :) or if u hv a pretty job or no of some1 put in a gud word for me ;) hehe
I've also started drums n bass again..ive found some time to zvoga in them thnx to my rekindling by pete n a shout out to him for always being there ^^ xD ok..so now ill talk bout my weekends :) im enjoying my weekends quite a bit lately..im meeting a lot of new ppl and making friends quickly *shout out to maria, dee, san anton ppl n ofcourse d spank crew xD* hehe its rlly fun and im actually doing something fun in d weekends not just d same thing over n over again..no offence to any1..im *socializing* xD
but anyhu...my baby cuz is now 2 ^^ hehe her bday was this weekend :D she's just d sweetest kuccla ull ever c! but is petrified of my bro so its rlly funny..every time he comes near her..no matter wat an amazing mood she's in shell start crying and pull away form him xD its funny..
Shout out to simon too for his happiness :)

n to all my community friends..i rlly miss u guys n havent seen most of u in ages!! btw..im wont be able to make it to outreach cos of a lot of things :/ its become impossible..so like it shows God doesnt want me there this yr :( but anyhu..atleast im still off to SS so yey hehe oh oh oh!! btw..i sang in mass this weekend ^^ hehe it was fun and i got some rlly encouraging commetns :) hehe tnx u all!! so ye..thats basically wats been up in my life..and also a BIG shout out to my boy Jesus ^^ for giving me amazing talents which i love using for Him :D hehe guys im dying to start dancing again! at y4j last weekend i just fell in love with dancing through worship again! amazing experience! ^^ and then sunday opened my eyes to how much ive always loved singing! hehe and also i was on God tube yest. and i found this guy called Coffey and man..he is just amazing! i fell in love with his style of music!! He rlly inspired me! :D hehe..and below there is a song that i think is sung at both y4j n community so like i wanted to show how he just makes it so much cooler :D hehe obviously no offence..i just think he is rlly cool xD and also there is another song of rihanna..umrella which he makes into a christian song..rlly worth seeing..its pretty :) hehe..so ok ill leave u now! btw i hv my english oral today and my german listening on friday so prayers r requested!! :D hehe

Signing off with nice cuddles and blessings :)

You

2008-04-08T12:09:00.004+02:00

I've been looking for love in another's eyes
Searching for water, but I come up dry
Thought that I could find
Happiness in the world's applause
Peace of mind in a worthy cause
Take me back, take me back
Go to trust in the simple truth
Got to trust all I really need is
YouI'm coming back toYou
The only thing I know worth living for
Will You take this heart and make it more likeYou
I give it back to You
It's obvious no one could love me more
I'm Yours,I'm coming coming back!

ok so..no i didnt write that xD im not that gud:P its from a song i heard yest..it rlly struck me like..cos like last night i put on my ipod n shuffle n like this was s first song that came up..n i rlly felt like d first par. was wat ive been doing..n then it hit me that d chorus is wat i need to do...so like ye...hehe...most of u might not no wat d hell im talking bout but a few of u no..basically i fell...and grazed everywere (im meaning spiritually) and by God's grace i finally got up with friends n daddy's help too..tnx guys ;) n im coming bk ^^ so yey hehe..i learnt my lesson and wat i need to do now so like ...im coming coming bk :D hehe..ill leave u with d actual song now ^^

Signing out with forward cuddles and blessings xxx

A day in the life of the Karls with Achie on the side...

2008-04-02T16:40:00.004+02:00

No Joe I'm not mentioning you cos ur an ass and didn't come xP
Today i decided to finally blog about school..cos we soon leaving n it felt right to leave a typical day of memories...
so well...today i decided to go to school xD and Karl didn't sit near me...now for those of u hu dont no karl, he is a friend from school hu i do mad things with xD...so insomma...i spent most of d day just drawing during d lessons n writing school leavings..n well i normally draw ppl n today i drew a girl..n as usual karl judges her to tell me if she is pretty enough...by telling me if she is do-able or not xD....n i gave her pretty eyes n i nice chest so she was do-able xD..jahasra...but anyhu..so after small break Karl finally cae to sit near me..and as usual there was alot of raping..dw i raped him ;) xD..actually molested..cos d thing is i grab his ass and boobs alot xD...they r sexy ok xP hehe..and also i mind raped him abiut with d aid of kelly :D hehe..its our thing :P but anyhu...d conversations that me and karl had were hillarious...cos like between lessons martha was trying to learn how to punch karl n i decided to try too..and since just be4 that i bit his hand n found out he hadnt washed his hands..i was a bit pissed off cos i had a horrible taste in my mouth xD so anyhu..i decided to punch him...n i won :D meaning i hd d hardest punch :D...so then during lessons i stayed punching him n he thought me how to punch properly xD..another conversation was about his nads..YES bout his nads...cos at a point i tryed to punch his nads but apparently wen a guy sits his nads sink xD so he explained to me d whole situation about nads...quite interesting xD we also talked about rowin atkinson..or however u spell it and he shouted out orifice xD n then i sed hardcock..n for something stupid reason he sed haemoglobin :S yes THATS how weird karl is xD we also talked bout how stupid achie is for writing 1999-200 on my school leaving xD..look at it properly n ull realise how stupid it is xD and all at a point i randomly go "Karl..if i touch iu will u scream?" n he gave me a wtf? look..i love that lok xD..cos i was planning on grabing his ass..but d teacher was annoying n i didnt want a telling off xD..then..during I.T..of course...karl had to be a smart ass and made a pop up say karla is a man instead of error xD and Achie shows her stupidity wen he did another popup saying something like "joelikeshavingsoup" n she read it shaving soup instead of likes having soup :P xD but we love Karl..we do :P but miskin...he is silly xD..n has a small cock :P well i say he does but i personally dont no xD ah! we also had a discussion on how i buried my mouse..cos this weekend my mous died..n i told him i buried him in an empty butter container...n he burst out laughing saying.."i can't blieve its not mouse" xD yes we r that sick xD and also at another point i decided to give karl d look...to show him im about to rape him..and for once he didnt gat scared and just sed "we're going to d bathroom ejja xD" that was funny hehe...this probably sounds rlly stupid to every1 but i wanted to write me its my blog leave me alone xP ALSO i must say i had a recess with paws :) which was swt cos i hadnt done that in ages..and we protested...its a thing we do...a grp of us just sit in d middle of d play gorud were d teachers walk n sing or do something and we called it our Tribe of protesting xD..n Karl threw a bottle at me during our protest but luckily he missed me but hit achie instead xD i laughed and pointed at her o=)...also..one of d teachers had a paw on her bag so me n paws freaked out..cps well..her nickname is paws :) hehe...also..after break..wen we came in our class we found most of d chairs of d other classs in our class and an extra teachers desk..and a desk with an underdesk...which wasnt normal cos our class is d only one without underdesks in it xD..so we werent d only ones hu went crazy xD and David came in all pissed off cos they were from his class and he sed he was gonna report us to d "kunsil" xD hillarious boy he is that one xD ..teachers also went nuts..as our physics teacher was suppost to say(while reading a qs"2 trolley rubed together after colliding" nd she sed lawyers instead of trolley...if u play it bk it sounds hillarious xD and with our perverted minds it sounded worse..also..we had italian exchange students today..some were asian :S and i must say...asians speak funny italian xD and last but not least...we will learn d result of this tom...during our random moments in d chemistry lesson..d person i am...decided to make a sentence perverted by crossing out "liberating" and writing "lubricating on a pst ppr..now d idiot that i am...i gave d pst ppr in cos i 4got wat i wrote n i had finished d ppr xD..so God knows wat she is gonna say tom xD..well its Karl's past ppr so il lblame it on him xD luv u karl :P...anyhu..ill leave u now :D hope u had a nice laugh sry there r no pics of dat day..but we cant take our cameras yet xD oh and btw..ye i no this doesnt sound like me..but its a prt of hu i am..i just dont show this side to every1 xD

Signing off with hillariously freaky cuddles n blessings xxx

Spring!!

2008-03-27T12:22:00.003+01:00

ah...hello my children hehe...well Spring has arrived...doom doom doom....well i love spring cos its like pretty and there is lots of sun but fresh breezes too so u dont get too hot but still get tanned xD but unfortunately my spring will be spent inside cos of my silly exams next month :O ehh but other than d weather i dont rlly like spring much...my close friends now y xD lets just put it this way shall we? its mating season xD and that sounds so wrong! hehe but anyhu...well...im not gonna be bloggin much unless i rlly hv something to say cos like im getting rlly busy n stuff n im not even having much time for hillary's letters :( ehh...but im excited ta cos like this summer is gonna rock :D hehe this post is so for nothing jahasra but i felt i needed to blog a bit hehe...oh btw i kinda almost broke my toes yest xD cos we went on a hike n i was playing this game n Glenn bashed into me n hit my toe n it was hurting n wen i got home i took off my shoe n there was blood allover my sock n my toe nail chipped from d middle n i cant wear most shoes for now...i hv to stay in flip flops which freeze my toes but anyhu! x'tamel!! anyhu...comments r going down again pfft :P hehe n every1 loves my new hair for any of u that havent seen it yet hehe..its very smexi :D

ill leave u with a pretty comedy now :) in honour of drea hehe

Signing out with spring's warm cuddles n blessings xxx

What if its Him?

2008-03-20T22:02:00.002+01:00

hey guys n girlies...so..lately i havent been myself...i mean everythings normal ta but i just felt like i wasnt being myself...n insomma i was talking to Jesus bout it and i was telling him how..like...i no he is there..n i no he loves me...n i no he knows me more than any1...and like i no d basics...but there is still something missing n for these past 2 weeks ive been trying to find this missing something! n its been killing me...n thats y i havent been me...n insomma i called this thing my missing link..thats y on my pm on msn it was *missing link*...and insomma at first i thought i found it..like it was basically d solution of one of my problems atm...but it wasnt working at all...i mean i still hv this problem n i thought that d missing link was d answer to this problem which i thought will soon be coming..n well..it didnt...n today iwas talking to Achie on msn and telling her im confused...cos like she n bob r d only one's i rlly talked bout it to...n she sent me this link of this funny clip on you tube to cheer me up...n i just knew that with this link something was gonna happen..i knw God wouldn't let this opportunity pass...and sure enough he didnt...after i laughed a bit at this clip...d first song on d side struck me...so i clicked on it..it was called..God speaking..and i was like ok?...i no uve been speaking to me lately..but wat this bout?..n like He told me to be silent n c it...so i did..n im telling u by d end of it i was just crying...n calling out to God! it just rlly impressed me guys...n it just clicked...wat i was missing was God's Love...i had d knowledge..but i didnt hv d love!...its like u hv d equation but u also need a solution kinda thing...n hekk it clciked...n its so amazing!...u no tom he is gonna give his only son for us again!!..guys u dont no how happy im feeling atm...i found my missing link but its as if i found God again! God rlly loves me guys...n it rlly makes me smile now..n like u no He rlly nows us? like..in d song it says...
have u ever heard a love song that set ur spirit free?
have u ever watched a sunrise and felt u could not breathe?
What if its Him? wat if it's God speaking?
have u ever cried a tear that u could not explain?
have u ever met a stranger that already knew ur name?
...and hekk it struck me..n later it expalins how he just uses anything to show us that he loves us...and hekk he just uses anything that he nows will strike us to show us that he loves us..and he wouldnt be able to do this unless he rlly knew us..like u would no how to get d attention of ur best friend..like to show them that u need them...or something..like a "code" between u 2 cos u no eachother...n God does d same..n d more we get close to him d more he shows us...cos we get to no him so its like more a best friend "code thing" and its so cool!! ah im rlly blabbing!! ill just leave u to d song now hehe...enjoy...

Signing out with lovable cuddles and blessings!! xxx

HAPPINESS!!!

2008-03-18T18:00:00.003+01:00

NO I AM NOT BEING VAIN :P..i just want u to remember my long hair^^ i feel so refreshed guys...but i miss playing with my hair!! hehe for u saying wth is she taking bout..im meaning i just cut my beautiful long hair and boy did it came fun..it didnt come like d pic i sent most of u..cos its much shorter...but its a like how i originally wanted it :D hehe its lighter too hehe...ah i just stayed describing my hair..i was gonna to a be4 n after thing but i decided to leave u in suspence till u all c me so i just did a be4 pic :) cos im a special teaser :P so anyhu...going on wat i wanted to say...well hillary's hair came pretty :) it would hv been prettier but we ran out of time xD well insomma not prettier but straighter...her hair is a monster!!! i swear i think it fought bk a couple of times...it doesnt like being brushed xD well anyhu...going on to meeting of that night...well d thing is i went to d very bk during worship n behind me there was this girl crying...cos i was were no1 can c u like...n i felt God telling me to go talk to her but i chickened out :( but then i saw cett come..so i knew it was God talking cos wen u dont do something and God rlly wants it done He gets some1 else to do it...and insomma then i went near ach n paws...yes i moved alot during d meeting xD and insomma i felt God tell me to go talk to some1 so like i did since i didn't do d first thing and at first i thought it was for nothing but then i realised that d person learnt from wat i told them :) so that made me happy :) but then again...i went somewere else to worship n again..i felt God ask me to do something and im like come on! y me!! i mean God only started to talk to me properly like a mnth ago n sometimes He just doesnt stop..i mean i cant complain..its cute but like wow! hehe..n insomma i felt weird doing wat he asked so i decided it wasnt from Him n left it at that..but i knew i would be d only person hu could rlly do this so it was like eating me inside..u no how? n insomma d talk came n we all sat n d talk was bout how we should always obey wat God asks us to do..n i didnt no d talk was bout this and i was like illa! God has been doing this with me threwout d whole meeting xD..n insomma d talk finished n it was rlly nice! proset sam! n insomma after d talk they said any1 hu never gave there life to God properly get up if u want n d person near u will pray with u...n i just lloked at this person n God sed go now! n i just shot out of my place cos i was all jazzed up botu doing wat God wanted and insomma i prayed with this person n she told me some things n we prayed together n it felt so good working for God n i love listening to Him its so cool!! i mean ive been waiting for Him to speak to me for 2 n a half yrs! n boy was it worth d wait!! oh n d next day i met d person that i had to do something to but didnt hv d guts to..n i did it hehe :D so i felt better :) hehe..its so cool guys :D anyhu..i talked anough xD so ill leave u now...to put a pic of my new hair style..or not to put a pic :S..hmmm...maybe tom :P

Signing out with hairy cuddles n blessings!!

My Saloon xD

2008-03-15T11:22:00.007+01:00

hey guys n girlies...well today i want to talk bout last weekend cos i forgot to xD actually my past 3 weekends :O including this one hehe...well 2weekends ago Zoe decided to come to my house cos she is pretty hehe :) n insomma i did her hair n we hd some good girl talk :D nd we got all dressed up at went to y4j..last weekend...i ended up with Zoe Mina and Hillary at my door xD and we decided to call my room d saloon xD so last sat. i did mina's hair and adjusted hillary's ^^ and Zoe did their make up..it was fun yes..very fun...we hd lots of laughs which Hillary wasn't a part of cos i gave her my letter so she went into her own bubble on my bed and just heard random words from wat we were talking bout like "CONSTIPATION" XD cos d thing is Mina was reading my bio notes on my desk n i was doing digestion n stuff and it was on d page of constipation so i told them wats it is...and at d end i sed "and thats d definition of constipation" and that was all hillary heard..and we all ended up in fits obviously xD..wat else...ah yes...poor Zoe was trying to tell us bout her dream...but me n hillary were talking bout d letter so u could imagine how alone Zoe felt with only Mina hearing her xD but anyhu...it was fun :D...n now this weekend im gonna hv Hillary behind my door to do her hair XD so yes..ive become a hairdresser xD..i should start charging *evil grin* hehe..well its better than studying be4 going out so i cant rlly complain xD this was such a random and completely diff. post from all my others..but anyhu xD..wat else do i hv to say?

im feeling like a real loner xD..im hardly going out...n i rlly dont feel like actually...ill honestly be happy with just a close friend being on msn and i talk to them a bit xD..i think all d studying is making me mental..or im just a weirdo xD...but im missing cuddles atm...i need AFFECTION!!! hehe ma..this post is hillarious ta! xD...btw i need ur prayers guys!...i need patience like rlly badly!! and kalmanti xD...seriously! thank God for Jesus hu is making shut my mouth xD..ma im being random..ahjar i go! XD

Signing out with random cuddles and blessings!

My Daddy :D

2008-03-11T16:35:00.002+01:00

Hehe...u guys probably think im mental..or am craving family..first with friends as siblings then im feeling like a mum and now this xD..well i just wanted to talk bout this rlly cute experience i had yest...well d thing is...only recently hv a started seeing the Lord as my dad, i mean He has always been my best friend and my Saviour but i could never c Him as my dad. but anyhu...ok i wanna tell this as a story cos its prettier! xP..excuse d hyperness...so here we go...

She climbed into her warm soft bed as she started thinking of Him. She thought to herself, "I'm in a romantic mood, i think ill read His love poems be4 i drift off." She opened the drawer and took out the book. She placed it on her quilt and stood up in her bed. She was confused on where to look for a romantic passage in such a book so she looked it up in the index. She looked throught some passages but nothing that she really like and just as she was going to loose hope she found it...it was a pinky section called "daily devo" and its titled was [Prince charming has arrived]. This made her laugh of course since just a few days ago she had given up on the whole marriage scene but to her surprise this wasn't wat she thought it was. She read throught it and something rlly struck her from it;

"Day and night, He pursues you, demonstrating His love for you.
You want flowers? He created them!
Love letters? Read His Word...
To know you're worthy of love? He sent Jesus to die so you could live happily ever after with him! In more ways than you can imagine, God's telling you that He loves you. DON'T MISS OUT!"

She reflected on this and a thought came in her head, "since God is my dad, my best friend and also my lover...y shouldn't He sleep with me?"(side note: pls dont think of it some sick perverted thing cos i didnt) so she moved herself to d side and opened her quilt and whispered, "Jesus time for bed" ^^ she then slowly placed the quilt over her and imagined Him in His robes stood up on d wall of her bed and getting into her bed. She then imagined herself placing her head on his warm soft side as she gently whispered, "Goodnight Jesus" and drifted off to sleep....

That night was the best night ever, she slept so peacefully in God's presence and her dreams {for the first time ever} had God involved in them. She was a happy little penguin ^^

hehe and thats my story...and fyi...the only guy mentioned in this story in Jesus so dont get any thoughts concerning the begining piece. Now u no how im gonna go to slep every night hehe...im telling u its amazing..u should all try it one day :)

Oh and btw...alot of ppl read my blog ive heard but no1 rlly comments..some feed bk would be nice...it only takes 5 mins to comment..it takes atleast 30mins to write blogs like i write them...im being honest :P

Wat else i gotta say? hmmm...ah yes..im getting my mock results..so far i havent failed anything...n these r mocks so im hppy hehe and oh! i went to uni today xD...with school...saw Cett...lets make a shout out to Cett hehe just for the hell of it :D...it made me think...and i rlly dont wanna go to Uni now xD i mean i dont mind 6th form but Uni..it just doesnt seem right for me yet..i mean ive always wanted to study in a dance academy but i was getting unsed to d fact that that wont happen...but hu knows things change hehe...d 2 videos underneath r rlly nice...d first one is hilarious and fun..i love it :D its rlly jumpy and i love listening to d second one hehe..i love these bands..first is audio adrenaline and the next one is planetshakers...very nice :D hehe btw d first video needs extra volume..n listen to d chorus lyrics well they r so much fun :D hehe

Signing off with daddy cuddles and blessings xxx

Black to white to..grey?

2008-03-06T20:44:00.003+01:00

Hello my children...im keeping it wether u like it or not :P anyhu...welll to get d record straight, what I'm going to say is not effecting my motherly love! XD no what i'm about to say isn't coming from pms or from something that depressed me..and pls don't ask why...i'm gonna try explain it as best i can ok?
So basically i've made a final decision..I'm not getting married...yes its final. its not a cry wolf...and dont bother convincing me...its not gonna happen, ppl hu normally say it cos they don't think they can keep a commitment or there isn't someone out there for them...and i no that if i had to get married those things wouldnt hv been an issue. i just know guys..i was rlly thinking today..like bout life n how i imagine myself in d yrs to come...i honestly think ill end up like a female "dr.john" if u no wat i mean...for those hu dont...basically remain single for d rest of my life and take care of my youths which to him are his children u no?...ive always thought bout doing that and somehow it just feels so much nicer to me than getting married :S...now i odnt no if God is just laughing at me cos he begs to differ or if He is smiling at me and teeling me..she finally understood it.
Now for those hu know me well wont think ill last without a guy or for sex in d future for that matter...but i honestly cant give a crap bout anything atm..im at peace and i like being this way...i dont care if in d future i do actaully meet some1 but if i do he is gonna hv alot of convincing to do cos im quite sure d only man out there for me is my future roomie and best friend..Jesus...and no im not becoming a nun! :P xD and id like to say sry to ach for ruining out white dresses plan xD but anyhu...im off...wat a surprise i gave u didnt i?..it kinda reminds me bout d mime...how first she was sure bout God (like i was bout not getting married) then all d sins came and she got confused (like me i got confused thinking i should) and at her last bit she finally got bk to her senses and ran to jesus ( like my post today)
i leave u now...gn my loves

Signing off with peaceful blessings and cuddles xxx

Treassures!!

2008-03-04T21:21:00.004+01:00

Hello children!! im hving to post from my dad's comp cos my internet connection is being lazy today and doesnt want to love d conection downstairs..miskin i wore him out xD....well for those wondering y i put a pick of spinola bay on my post...u can continue wondering..that pic is for one person XD they no hu they r...im going diving!! :D hehe well i want to go diving...there! at that bay!!! how random i must sound xD
but anyhu...so basically i wanted to talk bout something that happened to me at d lenten talks...so..on one of d days i was in praise upstairs..and at one point i felt like readin d bible...but i didnt hv one so i borrowed bob's...n i love his bible cos normally it gives me pretty readings! but it didnt want to give me pretty reading so i got all annoyed but suddenly like i just felt something saying david...n im like david...then i realised no! daniel!!...so im looking up daniel in d index....and im like daniel..daniel...daniel..and it hit..daniel 6! im like..but i never read daniel...wat could possibly be in a book i never read?..but i opened it on daniel 6 and im looking at it...and d title hits.... DANIEL IN D LIONS DEN!! but ive never actaully read it..i just heard bout it...so i read it..and im like wat on earth does this hv to do with me?? and insomma its been racking my brain lately and i told hillary bout it..n somthing she sed just made it all click!! shes like its bout trusting God and letting him do wat He needs to do..or something like that..cant rem. xD n it totally made sense guys!! it rlly did!! u c lately some thigns hv been really ruining my singleness and my mission for d moment...and i didnt no how to get rid of them and it just clicked..i hv to leave them with God and just let him take them and let Him do wat He gotta do u no? hehe i feel smart now that i figured it out XD..well i think thats all i had to write..

no its not XD guys..i realised something..i love writing!! as in stories!! i just love it..i wrote a story to hillary today and i jst fell in love with writing it...i mean i got so into it that i just zoned out into d story..it was sooooo cool!!! i wanna be a writer guys!!! i love it so much!!! one day ill write a story just for my bloggers to enjoy :) hehe...C!!! another motherly feature!...making stories for her kids ;) XD i rlly wanna no y God is making me such a mother XD...probably showing me how i do hv to get married xD which im starting to think might not be suck a bad idea :D hehe gbu u all my children!!

Signing out with lion cuddles and blessings

Minus or plus? :S

2008-02-29T11:54:00.002+01:00

Hello my children!! hehe..yes im gonna start saying that on my blog too :P
ok..so guys im having my first not-so-happy single moment which im happy that i didnt come early but 2mnths later..well almost 3 mnths but anyhu xD
so basically...no im not missing a guy or am feeling alone...thats not me anymore..i dont do that cos i find it silly..no offence..but hekk i dont no..im not feeling like "me" atm..i dont think it has anything to do with my single life but hekk i dont feel like im myself atm...im feeling quite left out cos i dont no were i shuld be..i mean thats been coming to me for a while now but hekk...i dont no my place and were God wants me to work..and i no he wants me to work cos he keeps sending ppl at me..and i love i honestly love it...i just love helping ppl so much!!! but hekk i dont no...there is something so not right with me atm...i think i no wat it is but cant rlly say it cos i dont no how :S hehe all i ask from u is ur prayers...just pray for me to focus and concentrate pls :D...
On a nicer note..hehe..i finished my mocs :D WOOOT!! hehe and and D MIME CAME AMAZING!!!!!!!! it was so weird...for d first time ever...all i did during d mime was PRAY and it was so cool...d only thing i remember i was doing was tearing Zoe's t-shirt cos it wouldnt come off xD otherwise..i dont think it was me...i dont remember walking..i dont no how i did! cos my shoe was sliding off but hekk it just went it to place somehow...i feel like some1 was totally guiding me :D hehe so cool..guys we hv to work for God cos He really wants us to and its so cooooooooool!!!! :D hehe
anyhu i leave u children!!...i post pretty video for u to enjoy..
p.s...d drummer looks like gruppetta over here xD

for d lyrics...which i never read...but ill read now ...http://www.musicfaith.com/Lyrics/95/181/1884
enjoy...

Signing out with working cuddles and blessings!!

Motherly love :)

2008-02-24T20:55:00.004+01:00

Hello my lovely children...im coming up with d weirdest blog aren't i xD..well its cos of d reason that im about to write...well do u remember my post on WAITING..it was bout how im gonna take my time as single as an adventure.(d last one of jan. 4 those hu arent frequent readers)..well till then its been one amazing adventure...

1.)ive helped loads of ppl
2.)getting closer to discovering my calling

3.)learning how to put others be4 me

4.)got a new hrt :D

5.)realised some things that need changes *kisses*

6.)made new friends and got old friends bk

7.)gained convidence and lost some pride

d list goes on xD but this weekend i discovered something new :D...my motherly love hehe...well...rem. how i was last week with slum survivor..like i couldnt sleep cos i was so worried bout d slummers and how every moment i was able to go c them i was there??...well this week something happened as well..u c i realised that im not coming to d first 2 lenten talks :( so i wont b seeing d dance so i went to c their rehersals on sat. and be4 i went i was all excited as if i was a mother going to c her child perform at their first concert or something..n wen i went there and just saw them dancing i felt so proud of each and every person there!!! and its so amazing!! and like all throughout this weekened youths have been coming up to me with their queries and problems n situations n stuff and i just enjoyed helping them and worry bout them and praying for them...n for any1 reading this hu i tried helping this weekend..no that im praying 4 u!!! and its so weird cos like this weekend some1 rlly hurt me(d person should no hu they r n if they dont they r stupid xD) and its weird cos ive grown quite close this person over d months and hekk even though they hurt me...as soon as they told me they were not ok i worried and i 4got all bout y they hurt me and all i wanted to do was help in everyway possible...i felt like d person was one of my children..but its weird cos i dont want kids..i dont want a family..but Jesus is making me think otherwise xD n its weird cos i dont worry but since i got my new hrt ive really started worrying bout ppl n loving them more hehe...and like even today..ive felt down all day cos i felt helpless cos of d fact that i cant go help set up at d church for d talks or go help be4 d talks cos of mocks...these exams r getting in d way of me helping!!! GRRRRR!! i wanna help with everything and every1...its like i have all this urge in d world to just help n love its killing me!! hehe and its such a motherly feeling hekk...atm im seeing every1 as my children and its so cute :) hehe...u must probably think im totally mad...but this journey is quite funny and im happy that i can share it with u ppl hehe :)

Signing off with motherly cuddles and blessings xxx

King of Hearts??

2008-02-19T18:25:00.002+01:00

Hey ppls..ye i no d pic is sucky but i dont got a scanner so bear with it...i drew it hehe...dont tell me how gud it is pls...i dont wanna hear it cos ill get all proud n i dont want that..i did it to explain something and to thank God for doing something for me :) hehe so...d reason for this pic is cos this weekend i gave my hrt to Jesus hehe..so it all started on Friday night at adoration...so after a little time of worship n reflection i decided i need to open my bible but i was like im not gonna just randomly open it im gonna look for something and then find something i find interesting..so first i looked up giving then surrendering and then im like wait no! im having problems with affairs of d hrt atm so ill look up hrt..and i found giving ur hrt to Jesus and i was like cool ill read it...and basically it sed how we shuold give our hrt up and stuff and i was like ye cool i need to do that..im so sick of all this confusion i need a fresh start like...so i was there look at d Eucharist and im thinking..ok..hrm.."God i wanna do this but i kinda dont no how" and i stayed looking in d bible to try n find a clue and im like ok..i cant figure it out...and i got frustrated so i went outside for some fresh air cos i was also hungry so then i decided to go eat with a few others...i wanted to get some help on this one so like i asked Achie then Zoe n then Bob...n like ach sed to just say it and Zoe sed like imagine ur giving it and Bob sed just do it xD
so insomma sat. night came and d plan was to go to d slum at 6 spend time with them and then at 6.30 make my way up to y4j with some others...but d thing is at 7 d archbishop was coming n like i wanted to c Him and so i did hehe..n then Bex gave us a lift up to y4j and i was worried that they would hv finished worship n i wouldnt be able to give my hrt on Sat...but luckily worship was extra long that day..n like i went to d bk and i sat down a bit and just started talking to God and stuff and like then im like i wanna get up and WORSHIP cos God is amazing..so i got up and i started worshiping and then i just started imagining a bit...and i imagined my hrt like all dirty n blkened and bruised and i imagined myself taking it out and giving it up and like then i imagine God hugging me...and hekk at that moment i got a rush of tinglyness in my hands and hekk it went up my arms and i just couldnt help but spread my hand as far as possible in praise and it was just amazing..i cnt even describe it! just so amazing i truly felt God's Love....and thats how i gave my hrt to Jesus hehe....n they say God isnt real?!?! PFFT!! XD
anyhu...im off

Signing out with heartful cuddles n blessings! xxx

To mission or not to mission??

2008-02-17T13:40:00.002+01:00

Hey guys...Slum survivors over and all the slummers r either asleep or having a nice wanted warm shower hehe...so...during d time which i spent with them it occured to me that all i wanted to do was help out. i mean i went everyday and made it a point to stay for a while and hekk i rly enjoyed just being with the slummers hehe....and d thing is at night i couldn't help but think bout how they r doing and if they r ok..infact im dead tired cos i didnt sleep well these past 2 nights, i was actually thinking of staying with them last night cos Cara had suggested it XD...and insomma it occured to me like if i enjoyed helping them and stuff like that y have i never considered any form of missionary work and stuff like that?.well probably cos i cant live without so much food..not cos like omg i cant live..but cos i hv a low blood pressure and if i dont hv a swt or something every so often ill faint or feel horrible basically..and probably another reason would be that i get sick rlly quickly..and i dont think ill survive w/o a proper bathroom xD hehe i pee too much xD ask my school friends and theyll tell u how much i pee XD

anyhu..so guys pray 4 me...God knows wats gonna happen ta..its just i havent recieved and sms' from Him telling me wat gonna happen XD hehe

Well i think im off to sleep now cos im dead tired and im falling asleep on d keyboard xD...well sleep until my baby cousin comes over and starts screaming in my ear xD hehe

Signing out with tired cuddles and blessings

S.A.D

2008-02-14T19:33:00.002+01:00

Hello my loves..well i must obviously say Happy Valentine's day or S.A.D hehe..that makes me laugh and also a BIG SHOUT OUT to PAWS!!! Happy bday pupa!! mwa!!...well i want to start off with saying something bout valentine's day...ur probably gonna think im gonna moan bout it..but actually i am but not in d way u think...well i think valentine's day is rlly swt and i think its rlly swt for couple u hekk and like i dont feel all sad and stuff cos im single...i mean imbilli...u no..one day im not gonna be single and ill be enjoying d day too..so y d hell r so many ppl depressed today!?!? i mean seriously..one day ull be loving this feast too...so like just ignore it...its not that much of a big deal rlly...single or not..so watever...

also... i want to encourage ALL OF YOU to go visit d baystreet slum this weekend hehe which will be on d roof of bay...its running through d whole weekend..d event is called Slum survivor..and a few of y4j's youths r gonna be living in slum conditions on d roof of baystreet...and all this is to save money for d ppl in Kenya so go with ur money box :D XD

hehe..in other new (yes im being a journalist XD) IN THE HOUSE!!! is coming up...i.e..d Y4J lenten talks r running from the 25th Feb till 1st March form 8-9...rlly amazing guys!!! seriously...and get 7euros with u to buy y4j's first album hehe!! :D and also d mime will be taking place on d thurs of d lenten talks so probably community ppl wont come c it cos of annointing XP meanies!! XP hehe

i dont think there is any other news...ah yes...there is d healing service in Qrendi on Friday..at 7.30 :D hehe...and other than that..i dont think anything else...ok so thats it i think :S PRAY PRAY PRAY cos God is doing big things atm :D BIG BIG BIG...guys EXPECT BIG!!!!

Signing out with BIG cuddles and blessings xxx

Kisses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-11T22:24:00.000+01:00

Hey guys and girls!! well 4 those hu know me well enough..ur gonna be amased or think im crying wolf..and for those hu dont know me much this is a chance for u to get to know me...

so..ur probably thinking oh God kai feels liek getting off..or somthing like that well ur wrong!!...its actually something so diff!

so lately i ve been thinking bout getting off but not wanting it but understanding d meaning of it and how God wanted us to use it...and how ive used it in such a wrong way

ok so basically there isnt any point of hiding it...last yr i went kiss-crazy and hit d record of guys i got off with...im not vry proud of it but i did it..mhemmx tamel..and i mean last yr my mind was revolved alot (until soul survivor) around kissing and like most of my goal for 2007 were getting off with diff. ppl or in diff. ways...and wen i look bk and i think i actually suceeded i feel sick at myself...and think have i rlly just wasted this precious thing that God gave us?...i mean no offence to any1 i kissed ta xD dont take it personal...but anyhu..as far as i can recall in d yr 2007 i got off with around 15 guys...now some of u might say illa wat a bit...x'ageb...and some might say *cough* whore *cough*..i dont rlly care..past is past..and for me it was too much especially since out of those only 4 were actually boyfriends of guys i was dating...but enough gossiping buot myself..i just wanted to give u a picture of how i was ok..emfesise on d WAS!!! lol..any hu by d time s.s came around i realised wat i was doing wrong and prevented it hehe...until my next bf came along..and i must admit..compared to a normal bf i did restrict myself which is a very gud start i personally think...but anyhu..recently ive been going into getting off being d centre again...but i havent taken any action to it yet,..which i intend on NOT doing..and infact instead ive been discovering wat a kiss should rlly mean..and not in d way like u get those chain emails xD like if he kisses u here he means this...bla bla bla..that bull crap...so a kiss should be a sign of love...and it shouldnt be wasted on some random excesse hormoned guy u meet in pv...or girl for that reason..cos i forget that guys read this too xD....a kiss to an extent shouldnt even be given to a guy ur just dating/seeing..i mean i think a true kiss should be saved for a bf that has become ur best friend...and should be given at a perfect time and not just at a cinema...im very romantic and one thing im proud of is that every 'first kiss' ive had with a bf has always had a senes of romance in it...guys a kiss is a gift from God to show a person that u love them...and not some guy in pv that u want them....so next time u htink..uff i wanna get off!! think of my post and say no..be patient..jesus is preparing some1 for me..i should save this for them...and for all those lip-virgins XD out there dont fret!!! and dont waste ur first kiss..be patient..guys i rlly believe that God is preparing soem1 out there for each and every1 of us...and i mean seriously preparing...making them either into a gentlemen hu will treat u like a princess or a tru woman of God who will protect u in everyway she knows how...

basically i wanna say that ive decided to calm down on everything atm and i wanted to show u how God is showing me new things threw my singleness and im rlly appreciating them..and sharing them with u guys..be honoured..it took GUTS to say wat i sed ok!!

gbu!

Signign off with kissable cuddles and blessings :P

Scheiden??

2008-02-10T15:10:00.000+01:00

Hey guys..well im suppost to be studying German atm but i rlly dont feel like!! grr...i start MOCS tom...bleh!!..anyhu...well...lets talk bout my weekend shall we?...fri was rlly boring..d only fun thing was talking to Zoe on d fon for like a long time hehe..luv u pupa...sat sucked big hairy balls...it was suppost to be a rlly gud day and every plan made backfired, well another lesson learned from:

"we make plans but the Lord determines our steps..."

it happens to me quite alot actually...i got that quote a few weeks after i converted and i always use it..its quite useful...anyhu...im not in d best of moods at all guys...i actually think im going out a bit for some fresh air..maybe go meet jean and joe on their date xD this is how i felt last night hehe... but interpret it cos its not so easy to realise hehe

something struck me yest at. y4j..u no d talk of GO FISH...d dude said that...eventually everything dies..so there isnt a point in caring bout anything of d world...and that can be taken in such a depressing way hehe but it makes sense..we should b constantly praying to get close to God and not ask God for things u no? i think sometimes we can all be pretty selfish..and im d first person to be this way believe me..guys we rlly need to focus on God and he will just move us along..like we r a baby in d trolley and God is our dad pushing d trolley hehe..just enjoy d ride guys and dont get off and push d trolley ur self cos a young child always finds it hard to stir d trolley in d right direction...hope u understood me..hehe..sry that just came to mind know hehe...anyhu..i wanted to leave u with this video..its from d community weekend..its bout this guy hu spent 23 minuted in hell..enjoy... this is d second part..if ur interested go search for d rest on youtube

Diamond in the Rough...

2008-02-08T12:25:00.000+01:00

hey guys..
so..let me introduce my poem...i wrote it during a quiet time near some of my cell grp after digging at d BIG DIG and well i have been too lazy to post it but finally found some time to..so here it goes :) hope you like it...oh btw this came to me as i was looking at d only marble i found hehe..the title is d name of it..

Trying to reach the surface,
Trying to find my purpose,
Not knowing what I'm gonna find...
Praying the sun will be kind!

This is me,
It's who I'll be!
I'm scratched and dented,
Full of bubbles of tears
but too scared to show my fears...

People step on me,
Not realizing I'm there...
Have you dug deep enough?
Did you realise I'm in the rough?

You see a shiny
piece of me.
Could this be it?
Am I free?

You pick me up.
Your hands shaped like a cup,
Rub off my dirt...
This is my new birth!

He found me!
Could I really be free?
I'm his diamond in the rough...
And in His eyes I'm more than enough!!

Signing out with shiny cuddles and blessings!! xxx

Carnivalness!!!

2008-02-05T16:01:00.000+01:00

hey guys

this is gonna be my longest post ive decided :D hehe..well i want to start with a big thanks to GABRIEL for fixing my comp :D so now i can blog all i want i can read my emails and do updates and everythign normally on my comp :D YEY!! im so happy ive been updating since last night..like non-stop hehe

anyhu...d weekend was amzing i rlly enjoyed it :D i was rlly dreading coming thinking..uff im gonna feel all new since i havent been to community since december and stuff and i will feel awkward singing on worship team and stuff but as soon as i entered d topaz and i saw those first faces of friends i thought to myself "im finally bk home" u guys rlly made my weekend extra special i rlly appreciate it :D...d 60-70's night was just hillarious :D if any1 has some pics of it i want them!! i must say that d outfits were out of this world!! and i laughed so much!!! with mc hammer performer to beetles to nerds and greece ppl and all those hippies and 60's ladies just hillarious!! :D THANKS FOR AN AMZING WEEKEND GUYS!! and a BIG CLAP for JESUS for all the amazing things He has done through that weekend :D can i tell u guys? im so sore atm lol i dunno y but d weekend rlly strained me xD and man i rlly sang my heart out...its so weird i was rlly annoyed with some of d songs sung cos i was like "oh no not this again" kinda thing but i still gave it all i had and its so cool cos on sat i was hearing myself on d amp. and i was like wait ta thats not me :S and then i changed a lyric on purpose to c if it was actually me and it was! it was so fun man my voice had changed some how...from my actual voice till it reached d amp it was like changed :D XD anyhu..enough bout d weekend...we continue..sry sar couldnt resist putting that pic :P

Anyhu..on to monday :D..well monday..i woke up late...rlly late xD and i went shopping for shoes which i am about to do again after i finish this post xD and d most imp. part of monday was d Y4J CARNIVAL PARTY :D

i was rlly annoyed at first cos i was going late and leaving early but i rlly enjoyed it :D and u know wat i was? i was a CANVAS hehe and d pics ur seeing are wat drawn or writen..u c i took one of mig's old shirts (cos im small and i neded a big one) and i took my higlighters and permanent markers and every person i sed hi to i told them to write/draw on me and it have some rlly cool pics :D so im rlly loving y4j's imagination..

i rlly enjoyed myself...from rob and glenn's experiment that back fired to chasing bob xD to secrets :P and spilling coke on Rache and saying "melting" several times xD and staying still every 5 mins so some1 could write and of course pete constantly trying to write on me xP i rlly laughed and enjoyed it and i must say d best costume must go to brooks!! i mean come on look at him! isnt he hilarious?!?!

hehe..so lets continue shall we? wen i got home that night i find a pretty note on my desk from Gab telling me he fixed my comp :) hehe and thats wen i started updating hehe :D..guys be grateful for ur internet :D hehe..so today at around 11 me and zoe went up to jc to meet Bob and Rache cos they had lots of free's..it was so fun :D i also met up with lots of ex form 5's and other y4jers :D hehe it was so fun..i also found out that joe went and played with his digeridoo there too xD with jean hehe..i was gonna go to sok with bob but i had to leave half way through d lesson so i ended up going out with debz abit and met mc while talking hehe..guys they have an amazing chapel!!! and their food smells just amazing:D...im dying for 6th form seriously!!! and now i have doubts bout dls cos i rlly like jc..ah! issa we c wat d BIG BOSS wants hehe
now i must leave u all as i must go buy shoes :D hehe tc everyone!!

Signing out with extremely long posted cuddles and blessings :D

HELLOOOOOOO

2008-02-01T18:31:00.000+01:00

*relief* i can write this post as long as i want xD..im on achie's comp :D hehe
well i want to start off with a HAPPY BDAY to achie,bob nd mig(my bro)..too many bday today...
also i want to add that life has been so hectic these last few days!! AHHHHH!!! mocs coming up soon on d 11th...but this weekennd is all about relaxing and having fun..because..im going to d MARANATHA COMMUNITY WEEKEND...ill be bunking with lara, angie and ester...should be fun ^^ hehe although i promised my mum id still study so im getting some past pprs and my physics file along xD
today...today was such A DAY....school finished at 12 cos d younger forms have mid-yearlies....our classes went as usual..d only diff. was that instead of 9 lessons we had 4 lessons...d first to 2HR long and d other 2 were 50 mins...not so bad...during d science lessons we did our practicals..guys i have 14 marks in d bag for chemie and 13 for bio xD be proud :P lol

well i put this video cos it was d next best thing..i actually wanted devotion but i didnt find it on youtube so i put this ^^ hehe hope u enjoy...
so today i was making achie's card and i was thinking of like how long ive known her and looking bk at life and man....so much time has passed...and till now i still dont regret anything ive done which is awesome...cos d thing is my 2 motos of life or combined..and they go like this
"dont regret anything in life because everything happens for a reason"
and ive always thought and wondered about d day wen i actually say i regret something..it has to be something rlly regretable for me to regret it and thank God till now nothing that bad has happened yet :D
hehe..anyway i should go now...get last things ready for d party tonight
:D hehe

Signing off with devotional cuddles n blessings xxx

Waiting

2008-01-26T12:42:00.000+01:00

Hello beautiful ppl of God :D..want to start with a SHOUT OUT to Simon for making me happy again this morning :Dn 2 maria-angela cos im gonna be talkin bout wat she wrote on d forum :)so..on my topic on d forum 2day i found a rly long post bout dis woman sayin how we should rly take d time we hv single2rly get close2God as an individual n it got me tinkin..im not intersted in any guy atm so i thought..ok dats it im steppin out of my shell n im gonna start workin on my talents n on wat God wants n i dont care if it takes ages cos i no God brings so much more happiness2me den anyting else…so pray 4 me:D GOING ON A NEW ADVENTURE!

Signing off with adventurous cuddles and blessings :D xxx

Stuff..

2008-01-24T13:55:00.000+01:00

Hey guys..guess hu is sick for the 3rd time in 3.5weeks!!??..yes me..i hate january!EH! but anyhu..today i had nothing to do so i stayed clearing my room..n i found so much stuff!! so many memories guys..ive really changed!! even like from summer till now ive changed ahseb u ara!..i found abda maltese money too and my mum was gonna kill me xD i also wanted to say that u should read LK7:11-17..its so cute,rlly touched me..especially wen he says "dont cry"..i find it so cute..just imagining him saying that to me. God is d best comforter guys!!

Signing out with sick cuddles and blessings! xxx

Let outs..

2008-01-21T21:46:00.000+01:00

hi all...well i felt like blogging today so thats wat i shall do :) hehe...well i rlly wanted to talk bout d amazing thing that happened to me this weekend..well first of all i want to start off by saying i didn't get sick this weekend..hurray :D hehe..well anyhu..on sat night after y4j i was feeling pretty down..and by d time sunday came around i was down under d dumps..i mean i was so sad that mean i was so sad that my mum realised and she was getting rlly worried about me..cos first she though i was just tired but then she realised it wasnt my tiredness. Insomma...i couldn't figure out y i was so down but i just knew that i was..and like i remembered that last time i was this down and got angry at God and i started shouting at him and rlly letting out and stufff...so i decided that once i was home alone thats wat id do..and insomma d time came wen i was alone at home. nd at first i got scared but then im like ok..i ll go cuddle up in my bed and start tlking...and insomma d words kept flowing and flowing and like after a while i realised that i was feeling so much better..and i put on a smile for d first time all day :D and i realsied that i didnt have d problems that i had be4...it was so cool..i actually imagined myself...with a bag..like tutzi says..and i left it at d cross..and every since then ive been rlly happy..and like atm there is like nothing wrong with me xD im rlly happy guys hehe..i dont think this post is gonna save for me cos its too long xD..i leave

Signing off with let out cuddles and blessings

Small posts

2008-01-20T17:02:00.000+01:00

hey everyone...well i cant make long posts on this comp..just wanted to tell u that im arranging d blog..it cant be done all at once cos it wont save xD..how sick ay? anyhu..im leaving u with a pretty video :)

Signing out with small cuddles and blessings xxx

Oh ya baby!!!!

2008-01-15T18:21:00.000+01:00

hi boys and girls!!!

guess hu's bk again?!!?! :D
well wanna hear all about my life in 2008?!? xD im in a gr8 mood btw :D so first of all happy new yr to al and i hope its going gr8 for every1!!! :D

so lets start with the most recent..i just got internet in my room :D well u might be thinking that im happy cos well its fun cos its in my room and stuff..privacy..etc..but its not that..its d fact that d internet works everywere EXCEPT in my room!!..and it still doesnt work on my blog..im actually editting it from zoe's comp..tnx zoe :) hehe...and she is reading this so its funny...so wats new...me nd pete broke up on nye...wasnt planned to be on nye but wats a girl to do...oh! yes im in a mime...im d model hehe...d mime is called everything...its on my blog..its a clip..i think its in decmber....and zoe is d main part congrats zoe :D hehe vry proud of u
also i want to welcome achie and cett into d blogging world :) hehe
ma school is hillarious..though mocs r coming upp...btw!!! come th 28th u all have to come watch me :P at d lenten talks xD thats wat d mime is for-lenten talks...
well i forgot wat else i had to say..so ill leave u :D

Signing off with 2008 cuddles and blessings! :) xxx

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

2007-12-27T22:22:00.000+01:00

Praise God guys!!! i managed to get into my blogger account!!!!!!! i've really missed it!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so lets talk a bit shall we??? so first of all a very merry christmas to all !! and happy new year!! so u want to hear d story about nye?? OF COURSE U DO!!! hehe so d original plan was to go to bettina and spend it there cos like i didnt want to go to the dolmen cos like no offence guys but like i was feeling mega left out and like i didnt want last yr to repeat itself if u no wat i mean but anyway no ive decided to go dolmenating as tutzi put it xD also wat else is new? hmmm...well today i had dgrp lunch with our dgrp and steve's..very fun and we have established that i cant gurgle xD..ah gud times gud stuff
also in news(feeling like a journalist) on sat. 15thdecember 2007 i started my new book...its coming so gud guys...i just love it!!!ive already hit 3000 words and im on d 3rd chapter but i didnt write this week and im not even close to the middle so like its gonna be long!! pray it comes gud...id like to thank bet for her inspiration and a very special person hu is a character in the book..the person knows hu she/he is hehe...also next week i get internet in my room so ill be able to write more of my book yey!! hehe
A big congrats to the new fiances so happy to hear about it..and thanks sarah for such an amazing christmas breakfast i rlly enjoyed it was so much fun!!!!! so u probably want the reason to y i havent blogged in over 2 mnths...well anything that has my email addy with it isnt working atm cos well my comp is a paperclip and it deserves to be bent..hence im using buddy and not d proper msn and i have 100 emails and abda pending and i cant open them!! grr!!! so guys dont send me emails till im bk on proper msn...and i managed to use blogger due to google hehe...
anyhu i leave u with this pretty song and p.s tnx sim ....

Signing off with christmass cuddles and blessings!! xxx

Casting Crowns..

2007-11-18T16:28:00.000+01:00

a pretty song..d best video i found..wish there were nicer ones...hehe

Signing out with frezzing cuddles and blessings...

Growing up...

2007-11-13T18:49:00.000+01:00

hey guys n girlies..

sry i havent been posting lately but ive either had nothing to say or didnt no wat to write xD but anyhu...my parents r going abroad this weekend so its just gonna be me n mig at home hehe..they r going to paris to watch benny hinn lucky parents!! but anyhu...so today i had rehersals 4 Kristu Re...d dance is called Free by hillsongs and its rlly nice :D i love it...its coming rly gud!! Also today i had parent's day at school..i thought its my last one but apparently its not xD but it brings us to the pic of d day cos i had to pick which papers im taking 4 my o's..so anyway...those shoes that u c ontop r my first pair of shoes :) aint i cute :P?? hehe but anyhu...just stating that im rlly growing up quickly and its so weird..ill soon have a job and my school life will be over but my studying wont xD ah!! its just insane...i had all my little memories coming bk to me today...like all d laughs i had in school and some little hws that i used to find rlly difficult in jr school xD and wen we used to play during break..now we just sit and relax and my first crushes hehe and d first time i went out without parents...it was like im free xD but anyhu...A LOT has changed since then..A LOT...then i realised how im rlly growing up!!! i mean its already been practically 2 n a half yrs since i converted and it feels like just yest...i feel like im on a boat thats going rlly fast and ur in one place and suddenly ur already in a different place and it just flashed be4 ur eyes..ah sry 4 d depressingness but im just like that today..but anyhu..im off

Signing out with growing cuddles and blessings

SOUL SURVIVOR!!

2007-11-02T10:56:00.000+01:00

i miss it guys..i rlly miss it...ach produced a very nice video..just wanted to put it here :) hehe proset rixu!! mwa

Signing out with achie's producing cuddles and blessings :)

ENDING THE WORLD!!!!

2007-10-30T21:07:00.000+01:00

hey guys
crap week at school this week...though school was only 2 days THANK GOD!!! :D ah my wife is leaving me for a week to go on the german exchange tom. hehe..ENJOY IT WIFE!!! and scerri caught me fondeling with her xD no not actual fondeling..but something to get scerri suspicious...and stop him from thinking im going out with a friend from school!!!!
anyhu...the end of d world..so ur all probably wondering y i have a pic of a red moon..well the thing is d more i read d bible the more i realise that God is showing me about the end of the world..u c last week i read Mark 13 and i interpreted it as Jesus said that until every1 knows about the word of God the world will not end...and hence the fact the world has still not ended!!! so, now all you christians out there...reading this blog..here is wat u gotta do...go spread the word of God so that the world will end and we can go c jesus :) hehe..look at it this way...if we tell one person a day about god and another person hu we know can help by telling others will have malta covered in no time ;)....but anyhu..on to wat i read today...well i was reading Acts 2 today...and welll the end of the world came up again and it sed that wen the world will end the moon will turn blood red and there will be darkness....and every1 hu calls on jesus will be saved....or well something like that..but the blood red moon im sure about xD and well im guessing that will be the day that we r judged for heaven hehe so guys...we will no wen our job is done wen the moon turns blood red ok?? untill then we r not done so keep working..and tell ur friends abroad ok?! :D:D:D ah wat fun!!?!!

anyhu..i leave u to finish off my rlly good smoothie that i made as a memory of soul survivor :D

Signing off with blood red cuddles and blessings!!

Short Posts...

2007-10-14T13:11:00.000+02:00

hey guys...
don't rlly have a life anymore hehe...last time i went on d comp. was wed. and like its sunday..and normally i go on everyday..so like u can imagine how busy i am..well i just wanted to say a big thank u for all ur rlly nice encouraging comments!!!! and i am gonna go talk to my school conceller about my future..and dislexia..to c wat she has to say..and well take it from there...and fyi...its not the spelling thats d real problem but the actually mis-interpruting of qs cos im readin diff. letters....anyhu..im off to continue working..prayers are very much apreciated!! :D

Signing out with short blessings and cuddles!! xxx

The Big Dig

2007-10-09T20:57:00.000+02:00

hey guys..just came back from the y4j live-in...the big dig...really amazing...d clip above is from one of d talks...rlly struck me..hope it will do d same to u :)..anyhu...i have decided to go talk to my conceller at school about my career problem...she wrote me down be4 i even told her...she knew i had that problem hehe..anyhu..dont think i have much to say...im just rlly busy..hope d hw decreases cos i need to start studying xD...and im looking for a gud maltese pl teacher..if any1 knows a gud 1 pls tell me..and im at navaro right now..so like he has to be better than him xD....i leave u to go do chemistry past papers hehe...and guys pray 4 me...cos like for u guys hu dont know..i have some signs of dislexia..so im like parcially dislexic..hence extra spelling mistakes..and like its getting worse...and like its effect my comprehensions and my answers nd decreasing my marks n stuff..so pray that it gets better!!!!
ok now im rlly off...

Signing out with misread cuddles and blessings...

Sad Lions

2007-10-04T21:40:00.000+02:00

hey guys....well the only sad cartoon i found on d net was this lion so i decided im a sad little lion right now...welll actually i was fine this morning..im not sick anymore..school was funny..had a water fight and well everything was fine..but like then i was discussing my o-level time table with my mum..which totally sucks btw! d only gud thing is i finish 2days be4 my 16th bday :D hehe..but like then she sat me down with my bro and was like "karla...wat do u wanna become in life?" and im like...no answer kinda thing....and like all 3 of us were coming up with ideas and like...either i didnt have d qualifications...or i wasnt gud with that kinda thing...or its too long in uni for that course..or its under paid..or most ppl in malta r unemployed cs there is so much of it or i dont like it..and insomma it goes on like that..i mean we spent a gud hr discussing..so guys...i finish my o-levels in 7mnths and i have no idea wat to do after that..its like...wat am i suppost to do now?!??!!! i feel so uh!!!! like y am i here? is these no use for me?!?!?!! i seriusly do feel like just another pretty face at this moment....ah! :(

Signing off with needed cuddles and blessing and PRAYERS!!!

Can u lend a nigga a pencil?!?!!?! xD

2007-09-30T21:17:00.000+02:00

hey guys...
sry i haven't blogged in ages but i started school..last yr!! AH!!! and like i had lots of work to do..plus i decided not to work yest. so i had to catch up on everything..its so irritating! all u hear at school is o-levels..prize day...last this and last that..paper A and paper B...bla bla bla!! ah!! i just had to take yest. off..and id like to say *eqhem*...*clear throat* *shouts!* thank u!!! to all hu made saturday so fun :D! with hilariously fun rehersals at bet in d morning to ach coming over..to me going over to ach..to simon for d lift to d beach..and every1 hu came to d beach..it was just hilarious!!! "dont make me laugh i need to pee!!!" and she continues laughing xD and telefon! and thanks also to matt hu brought his guitar along..rlly relaxing! and to mig hu organised it!! lol and just an amazing sat...then sunday comes along and i had to wake up at 10.30 :'( ah!! and for those of u hu dont no..i got home at like 2.45 so like u can imagine how i woke up hehe..but anyhu....im dead tired now so i will go..and btw...my blog is a month old!! :D yey!!! happy b'day dear blog :D...d video is funny...its there as a sign of school begining...just for d guys hehe...

Signing off with 1month anniversary cuddles and blessing...

WINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-23T21:42:00.000+02:00

hey ppl...well today its my fave video up here..well not fave video cos thats charlieissocoollike..but my fave song..i just fell in love with this song..nd there is me in d video :D look out for me..im d girl in wings!!! for u guys hu dont know d story of me and my wings..well here it is..so picture it...well there is nothing to picture...ever since i found out there is a saint hu grew wings and i want wings and i was suppost to get them a s.s (well i dreamt i would :P)but im guessing jesus didnt want it that way...yes i no 4 u hu aren't believers it sounds strange but i believe that if u have enough faith miracles will happen! so guys pray for me cos im still waiting for my wings!!! hehe

but anyhu...my mum had a rlly funny vision today that she told me about ok..so picture...Jesus in his robe...waking up in d tomb...all yawning nd stuff and he gets up with a smile and finds d tomb door open...nd he gets out of d tomb and screams "YESSSSS!!!" lol i laughed so much!!! hehe ok very strange but anyhu...bk to today...actually last night..last night i went to john's bday gala...was fun..hehe..though i heard others had more fun :P ay nik ;P but anyhu...i should leav u cos i dont got anything else to say really....plus..tom school :( y?!?!?!?!!!?!??!?!!?!??!?!!?!?? but hey 7mnths n it will be all over! and no more st.mikes :D hehe

btw... a BIG HAPPY BDAY shout out to Zoe...a gr8 friend! she is just amazing! sweet! and special and pretty!!!!!! mwa luv ye hun!!!! xxxxxx
anyhu....

Signing out with new school term blessings and cuddles...

Just a little yeast can make d whole batch of dough rise...

2007-09-22T12:00:00.000+02:00

Hey guys

sorry its been so long but like a lot of things cropped up..like..i got sick..and i was busy!! as in never home xD

But anyhu...it was quite a gud week..i pierced my second ear holes :D and i finished something for d y4j talent show with some friends :) its a surprise :P hehe and i went out with Hillary for lunch (pastizzi xD) and a walk in d shade..a very long walk in d shade hehe with a lovely chat :) thanks hill..amazing morning. Also i went to community..gr8 fun..d guys got lots of new songs in and that was just amazing!!!!!! i was so happy and it felt so gr8!! and then d talk was rlly nice...thou i was mega hyper and was having a few laughs with Dezz and Sarah hehe "DISTRACTED!!" xD but anyhu..then it was off to mc d..in dezzy's gorgeous car..i want one just like it :) hehe yes..its tru i do! mc d's was gud...i was just dying for that burger!! ah!!! *melting* then i went home with Kristie..thanks Kris :) hehe oh and guys..that was just thursday...now u no how busy i was ok :P..thou friday wasnt as busy..i had d-grp in d morning :) very fun!! and then me bet and max walked it downt to st.gorges dropping off ang and illy on d way..to say hi to zoe cos its her bday tom :)!!! hehe then i went home and got mage bored so i asked pete was he was doing and he had nothing to do so wat did i do? go to pete :D hehe and cos he didnt want to wash untill 7! we were late for adoration which was nic...thou i prefared d other 2 times...then i came home to stay with d community ppl and watch a dvd there :) hehe and now its sat morning and im listening to mig matt and mike playing (cos they r in d room underneath me :) ) atleast they didnt wake me up!! :D hehe btw sorry for all d old pics and no new ones but like its 12.30 in d morning..just got up..rlly dont feel like uploading my fotos from my camera which is all d way upstairs!! hehe excuse me hehe

anyhu...d title is wat it is cos i was reading 1 cor 5 and like apparently(i realised) it was about sex..and that verse just rlly hit me as just rlly tru but yet so hilarious :) enjoy working it out :P

Signing off with lazy blessings and cuddles!!!

I'm Baaaaaack!!:D

2007-09-17T11:08:00.000+02:00

hello readers...
u missed me?? hehe

well let me tell u some fun things that i did this week while u were all in malta or some even abroad xD

well for those of u hu dont know my dad has a sailing boat so we like lived on it in d gozo port...n me n my mum got d car from malta so d boat was like our flat nd we would go round with d car...anyway..it was rlly fun..i had a doghnut for breakfast everyday...just amazing!!!! we went to d monti of gozo xD and i saw an adorable chiwawa for sale guys it was so CUUUUUUUTTTTEEEE!!!!! i wanted it but no my dad doesnt like them..just cos 1 almost bit off a piece of his leg he doesnt like them!! pff!
but anyhu...on 1 of our nights out i had a crepe that was on fire!! so cool!!! i did alot of sunbathing :D (for those of u hu need a laugh) i burnt my ass and like i cant sit in certain positions till it stops hurting xD and on d last day we went to blue lagoon with d boat and it was so nice!! i felt like i was on a totally diff. place!! i felt so tropical xD!!! hehe

but anyhu..now im bk! and i feel diff...dunno y..but i talked to my bro alot this week and he made me realise some things n like im changing :D i need a lot of construction to be done so STAND BK...THERE'S A NEW KAI IN TOWN ;P

hehe..here r some fotos of gozo :)

miggy nd his funky hat xD

lobster!!!

do u find this sign kinda disturbing cos i kinda do :S lol me through a wine glass :)
miggy looking quite funny in d morning xDd gorgeous sea!!!

and last.....me posing(as usual:P) while sunbathing..burning my ass...but lloking gud in my cowboy hat :D hehe

Signing off with new n improved blessings and cuddles :)

Gozo and Gozitans xD

2007-09-11T12:19:00.000+02:00

Hello to all my precious readers :)

Well I want to start off by telling you bye! cos im going to Gozo tonight until Sunday on me daddy's boat hehe so im not gonna be posting for quite a while so it gives u time to catch up on my posts xD cos well i tend to write alot :) hehe

But anyhu...my weekend spent at mellieha was just gr8! though it did take 2hrs to get home..y u ask? well cos we satyed 30mins waiting 4 d bus...30mins on d bus from mellieha to luxol...35 mins walking to Krissy...23mins at Krissys house having a break from d long ride home and 2mins to walk to my house xD hehe ah!! all d walking!! and then monday morning i had to walk more!!! man those ppl hu say i dont walk r lying!!! so ha!!!! :P hehe

Insomma i better go pack my things for this week...enjoy ur lives without me this week!! :P hehe

to remember me n my insaneness throughout d week :D hehe

Signing out with traveling blessings and cuddles...

2007-09-08T15:49:00.000+02:00

hey readers :) hehe

well for those hu dont know hu on earth is in that pic...thats me and achie...a friend of mine that i've known for like 11yrs now..we go to school toegether and r almost always in d same class and if we arent we r bound to have a few lessons together xD hehe...well d reason i have a pic of me and achie is cos im spending d weekend at her house :D yes im in mellieha(her house) as we speak...she is also d person i sed i left my mob at on a previous blog hehe...well anyhu...i'm off to d mellieha festa tonight with some buds then im sleeping here again and Krissy-my y4j mimmy-is coming too hehe..should be fun :D

i just wanna add a big thanks to mig and simon..they should know y :)

signing out with achie's blessings and cuddles xxx

Rain...

2007-09-07T13:53:00.000+02:00

Whatever your cross,

whatever your pain,

There will always be sunshine,

after the rain ....

Perhaps you may stumble,

perhaps even fall,

But God's always ready,

To answer your call ...

He knows every heartache,

sees every tear,

A word from His lips,

can calm every fear ...

Your sorrows may linger,

throughout the night,

But suddenly vanish,

dawn's early light ...

The Savior is waiting,

somewhere above,

To give you His grace,

and send you His love ..

Whatever your cross,

whatever your pain,

'God always sends rainbows ....

after the rain ... '

Poem found by Cettina :)

Signing out with raining cuddles and blessings xxx

Houses n brooms n mouses n rooms!!

2007-09-05T10:56:00.000+02:00

Hey guys n girlies :)
well yest. i went to Bettina's for our voluntary work...and our assignment was cleaning their San Gwann house. i know this sounds strange but our leadership team decided to do something 4 each person on youth team and Tutzi n Stefan requested that and it was quite fun though tiring. A big tnx to Amy for helping out even though she wasnt on our team mwa! We needed it since only 3 out of 5 of d girls could come...but anyhu...

Ah ppl...i don't have a mobile right now cos i left it Rachel's bag at y4j and she went home with it..and she lives in mellieha and for any1 hu doesn't no i live practically on d other side of d island lol xD so i have to wait till she decided to come meet her friends in Sliema or something be4 i get my mobile...its rlly weird cos u dont rlly realise how much u use ur mobile till u dont have it around...i was thinking like i would have died if i didnt know were it was!! anyhu...bet decided to go mad with my camera and took some pics hehe luv ye bet ;) and so ill post them up :) hehe

bet and danelle
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this is bets driveway..all clean..do u know how bet cleaned it?? by throwing d dirty water of d buckets onto d driveway xD >>

Bettina cleaning! :D

me cleaning d windows :) >>

Danelle sweeping outside

D buckets!! xD

Danelle on d fon

look how clean!!

ME!! hehe

Signing off with missed: texts, blessings and cuddles!! xxx

What was done was done...

2007-09-03T16:05:00.000+02:00

She sat there all alone,
her fingers running through her hair,
tears falling down as she realised
exactly what she'd done.

People spat at her,
others pointed and giggled...
And yet those she called friends,
were there gossiping in the middle...

No where to go.
No where to run.
All she could do was,just sit there, thinking...
What was done was done.

The people disappeared
after a few days,
but the hurts were still there,
those were the things that actually remained.

Thinking back
on what she'd done...
She realised
what a slut person she'd become...

No where to go.
No where to run.
All she could do wasjust sit there, thinking...
What was done was done...

She asked people to help,
but they would just look away,
until that oh so loving boy,
came and swooped her away.

She was afraid she'd fall in love and make the same mistake...
but little did she know this guy was no fake.
He told her about a man,who wouldn't be like the rest,
he actually told her he was the best!

She seemed confused,
as the boy told her about this amazing man he met,
the boy told her the man loved her...
But that she just couldn't get.

She asked him more questions
as she didn't believe this man was real.
The boy answered them all.
You could imagine how she'd feel.

She got all frustrated
wanting to know who the man was.
He said the man was Jesus,
the son of God.

She felt peace in her heart
and started to cry.
She didn't have the feeling anymore...
No more longing to die.

He prayed on her.
Doubts came into her mind...
What was done was done...
you can't just hide!

Could Jesus really love her,
after all that?
Little did she know,
He had already taken care of that.

What was done was done!
That's what she'd always claim...
Now she was healed,
and she'd never be the same...

a big thanks to Simon 4 d amazing pic!!!!

signing out with hugs and blessings from ^KaI^ productions...

Poffertjes and Koekjestaart!!

2007-09-02T23:08:00.000+02:00

hello ppl...

well today was fun! :D
met up with my leadership group 4 mass then we went down to mac d for lunch and then we went to bet's house to cook for our fundraising thats tom :O lol...hence d title...we wanted to do something diff....so we made dutch sweets...poffertjes are like little tiny pancakes and koekjestaart is like a cake :) rlly good!! as in DELICIOUS!!! so y4j-ins get money with u tom. cos we'll be selling some tastey treats 4 u guys ;)

insomma...went to d chapel today and spent like an hr there..just chilling with jesus :) and now im off to do my pl hw for tom...wish me luck...4hrs maltese then 2hrs maths!! :(
ah!!!!

at mac d's

buzu enjoying himself with d hammer

ach cooking :)

bet and danelle

us!!

the poffertjes :)

signing out with baked blessings and hugs!!

Adoration, Beggars and Boredom

2007-09-01T18:32:00.000+02:00

hello my lovely friends...
ah..my day today..hmm...
well lets start of with yest. shall we?
so..didn't do anything ALL day! and then in d evening decided to go on d comp. and i went on d y4j website and realised...omg there is adoration tonight and ok i was half an hr late but im like uwijja ill go..nothing else to do tonight seeing i had no lift to bidnija for d fundraising thing..hope it went well btw!! :) and anyhu i went and it was so amazing :) something big always happens to me at d adorations of y4j..dunno y..hehe..and so anyway after that went out with pete and val to beggars...really relaxed and then went to pizza hut and stayed talking to pete and then went home to watch last comic standing..just love that show!!! and then went on god tv and there was soul survivor and there was tim and mike and ali!!!!! :( i miss it soooooo much and mike sed d story about d condoms/drugs xD hehe and they got our wave guys!!! :D ah!! missing it!!! :(

anyhu today...well today i spent a long time on d fon with sim..while clearing my room...then went out with pete...very interesting convo bout bitchyness xD and now im here..doing nothing on a sat. night..how incredible am i?!?!?! hehe anyhu...on d whole a very plain day...

tom..if i get down to it ill have something interesting for my viewers..so BEWARE!! xD hehe

oh and btw...posted this video cos like at d end piece of d sand really struck me...like u no how just bring ur burdens to Jesus and he will just take them away... liked it insomma...

signing off with plain cuddles and blessings...

Push and push and push!!!

2007-08-31T10:41:00.000+02:00

gm my lovely friends :)

well...yest. we had community and for any of u hu were wondering y i was with my i-pod during worship..well its cos i got sick of complaining about d music and i decided to somethinhg bout it for me personally...and man did it feel good...d music was gr8 and d vibe from d ppl around me was gr8..it felt a little like soul survivor....man do i miss it!! :(...so yest. there also was d fundraising retro party..sry i missed it guys :( just felt i need to come to community..hope it was gr8 :)

anyhu...on to d weirdness of my title...so yest. i was talking to a friend of mine...and like they were telling me about how they cant get out of their spiritual deserts and i was expalining how i thought i was getting into 1 and thanks to yest. i kinda got myself out of thinking it and all d hekkness i was feeling left and i told this person "u gotta push and push and push till d baby comes out!!!" and in a way its tru u no..cos some ppl wen they think they r in 1 they tend to not realise that they r putting themselves in one...even like sicknesses..some ppl would think that they have a sickness which they dont have and they end up kinda getting it cos they rlly r convinced they have it..u no?? its a psychological thingy...and like i sed that cos u kinda gotta push ur way out of a spiritual desert..kinda stand up and say no i dont want to be in it! and push urself out of it :) hehe..hope u understood...

anyhu...mig just left for Gozo for d weekend...already missing him :( and his lift :P i jk i jk hehe but i do actually miss him..its weird how close we became thanks to him finding jesus hehe :)

anyhu..loving this pic..just had to post it :)

signing off with missed cuddles and blessings...

First Official Blog :D

2007-08-30T13:13:00.000+02:00

HI!!! Ah how fun a new blog :D...my blog was born and 1 p.m on d 30th of August 2007 ...im so proud *sigh of proudness* *tear rolling down cheek*
so anyhu, d reason i created this blog was..well...erm..i don't no i was in a mood today and decided ok im creating a blog :) very me-like actually
so im suppost to talk bout me ay? how fun :D hehe...yes i no i talk to myself...GET USED TO IT :P
anyhu..on to me...well yest. there was matt's party and it was quite gud...met alot of ppl i hadnt seen in a while had a few laughs..enjoyed dancing...on d whole gud :) but anyhu...today has been very plain actaully..well except my morning alarm...ok so let me tell u...i woke up...my eyes still closed my body still on shut down but like my mind kinda woke up..no watta mean? and i decided to stretch my hand to get my mob...thinking ill probably get an sms from a friend telling me if i enjoyed last night or something..well i was right...only problem is wen i switched on my mobile d person got a delivery report so d person decided to call while i was still all comfy in bed about to go bk to sleep my mum calls from downstairs...KARLA FON!!! and im like oh come on! so thanks to this person i had to get off my ass and get up!!! but d convo was ok so i dont mind it anymore xD hehe
ma i really write..xD oh and btw for u guys hu don't no..i write a bit of poetry so some of my blogs might start off with a poem or a drawing :)

signing off with morning blessings and hugs...